LOOL alright, here is my quick rant on chivalry and girls and blah!
Okay, just wanna say that I don't enjoy it how some ppl say that chivalry is dead one day and the next day, when I'm trying to be nice to them, or chivalrous, they are like, "No! what I can do this myself" or blah blah! and like SUPER insist on it! I get it if they are just trying to be polite and stuff, but honestly, no wonder chivalry is dead/dying! the girls don't let us be chivalrous no morree!! so it's selected towards it dying! not saying that all girls do this...and not to say that all guys are nice too, but yeah!! it definitely doesn't help if I open the front door of a car for a girl and she assumes it's not for her and opens the back door for herself. OR, when I go and ring the doorbell and wait for a girl at her front door and she texts me, "be out in 5 mins, wait in the car" OR when I pick up heavy bags for a girl and the girl goes like "I want to carry those heavy bags" and actually gets angry/irritated when you insist to carry it. THen like later, there's a facebook post or something of an old couple being all cute and they are like THIS IS THE CUTEST THING EVER, and be like "chivalry still exists!!" as if they are mindblown.. >LOL they shouldn't be!!! if you really want chivalry to exist still, the next time a guy does something nice for you, just say, "Thanks" :)
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Monday, October 14, 2013
another u know ur fat when...
okay, so i wrote one of these like a year ogo or something buuutttt u know ur fat when even ur DAD calls you fat! LOL like usually, dad's think their sons are like super fit superstar athlete living out their athletic dreams and etc.!
Soooo like this morning I walk down shirtless after my shower and my dad is like..."so Jireh, I have a serious question for you.." and i'm like "okay?" in my mind, i was like, he's probably going to ask about school or whatever cos he always does that... LOL anyways, he goes like.. "Jireh, with all the exercise you do...how are you still so chubby?" lOLOL and i was like AHAHAH SOOO JOKKKESS!! omg i actually died! and i was like "I actually don't work out as much as people believe I do and i don't eat well so that's probably why" then I added "but yeah!! thanks! i'm trying to cut down to 185lbs" and he's like "even joshua has a much nicer body" ahaha and i'm like "okay there.. LOLOL" haha
but yeah!! legitttt!! i'm getting fat! need to cut down! and today, I was soo scared i got diabetes!! like.. i think i actually might have type 2 cos every time i workout, i feel a lot better!! like... when I don't exercise, I get really thirsty and gotta pee a lot!! and i get SUPER tired!! (like htis just happened today) BUT STILL!! huge diabetes type 2 symptoms! and i'm actually technically obese too!! sooo....... yeahhh!! i'm actually starting to get worried about it!!
btw hannah this was sort of for you! but don't feel special! :) I feel special cos ur like the only one who reads my blog! LOL :)
anyways, today I went to the gym and did smolov day 3
7x5 at 325lbs back squat!! .. lol tiring stuff!!
Jireh!
Soooo like this morning I walk down shirtless after my shower and my dad is like..."so Jireh, I have a serious question for you.." and i'm like "okay?" in my mind, i was like, he's probably going to ask about school or whatever cos he always does that... LOL anyways, he goes like.. "Jireh, with all the exercise you do...how are you still so chubby?" lOLOL and i was like AHAHAH SOOO JOKKKESS!! omg i actually died! and i was like "I actually don't work out as much as people believe I do and i don't eat well so that's probably why" then I added "but yeah!! thanks! i'm trying to cut down to 185lbs" and he's like "even joshua has a much nicer body" ahaha and i'm like "okay there.. LOLOL" haha
but yeah!! legitttt!! i'm getting fat! need to cut down! and today, I was soo scared i got diabetes!! like.. i think i actually might have type 2 cos every time i workout, i feel a lot better!! like... when I don't exercise, I get really thirsty and gotta pee a lot!! and i get SUPER tired!! (like htis just happened today) BUT STILL!! huge diabetes type 2 symptoms! and i'm actually technically obese too!! sooo....... yeahhh!! i'm actually starting to get worried about it!!
btw hannah this was sort of for you! but don't feel special! :) I feel special cos ur like the only one who reads my blog! LOL :)
anyways, today I went to the gym and did smolov day 3
7x5 at 325lbs back squat!! .. lol tiring stuff!!
Jireh!
Saturday, September 28, 2013
As the deer pants
"As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God."
For those that want to know the definition of "pant" it is the following:
to wish for or want something very eagerly
to long eagerly
to breathe quickly, spasmodically, or in a laboured manner
I just finished running for 30 mins with my close friends and it's always a great time for just reflection and thinking! Although I really do hate running, LOL, i do miss it at the same time! cos honestly, when I'm doing crossfit, there is no way I am pondering on things or w/e...LOL i'm just dying! Whereas when ur doing cardio, it's like nice and tiring, but so repetitive and not super tiring that it's so great to just think.
Anyways, yeah, this song was in my head the entire time...like what it means to pant...and I was sort of reminded! LOL not that I was dying or anything after the run (i'm a lot more dead after crossfit and stuff) but, I really longed for water!! I was eager for it! I was panting for water! and it just sort of became so real to me that as a deer (or me after a workout) pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God! or... so I want my soul to pant for God!! just interesting! and i have many thoughts but i got to do work now!! oh well! :)
Smile :)
Jireh!
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
So I just realized that I really like controlling things!! :/ it's really weird!! haha honestly, I thought of myself of more of a chills kind of guy, but honestly, though I'm chills, I like to at least feel like i have some sort of control of situations in general! it's weird!
For example...when I meet someone new who doesn't know about the gospel and I share it with them, I friggin want their contact!!! so i can follow up!! which isn't bad, but at the same time, isn't necessary! When my friend is struggling in their faith, I want to be the one helping them out of it! for some reason, I feel like...uneasy in placing faith in other people...even though we may have the same goals and things! What i quickly realized this past week was that my problem is lack of faith in God. I know i am not meant to reach out to every single one of my facebook friends at a personal level and care for them so obviously, in the end, I can only really focus on a few! and those few can focus on their few and so on and so on! And i have to realize that if God wants to save someone/bring them closer to Him or just in general..if God wants something to happen, it will happen whether I do something or not! I need to just focus on what God has placed in my life and go all out in those ministries and have faith that God will take care of the rest! (okay, to be clear here, this is not an excuse to do nothing...I only think these things because I want to do too much/have a heart for things that God hasn't necessarily opened the doors for me yet...if you knwo what I mean)
In the end, I really liked last weeks sermon on the vine and the branches. The thing that stuck out to me the most (related to this topic) was that we are branches and our purpose is to bear Christ's fruit! and we shouldn't be worried about how effective or how tasty the fruit is, but just worry about bearing the fruit and having faith in the Vine, Jesus, that the fruit will be effective! and yah! this was encouraging to me! because I sometimes find myself caught in a thing where I think so much about the effectiveness of something that I don't bear it anymore...and that's the wrong mindset because God has His own plans and knows exactly whats happening and knows what is most effective even though we don't!
Faith...is just one of those interesting things that you can't learn enough about!
sry if everything was mumble jumbled up here! LOL haven't blogged in a while so my mind is like spaghetti atm! LOL
For example...when I meet someone new who doesn't know about the gospel and I share it with them, I friggin want their contact!!! so i can follow up!! which isn't bad, but at the same time, isn't necessary! When my friend is struggling in their faith, I want to be the one helping them out of it! for some reason, I feel like...uneasy in placing faith in other people...even though we may have the same goals and things! What i quickly realized this past week was that my problem is lack of faith in God. I know i am not meant to reach out to every single one of my facebook friends at a personal level and care for them so obviously, in the end, I can only really focus on a few! and those few can focus on their few and so on and so on! And i have to realize that if God wants to save someone/bring them closer to Him or just in general..if God wants something to happen, it will happen whether I do something or not! I need to just focus on what God has placed in my life and go all out in those ministries and have faith that God will take care of the rest! (okay, to be clear here, this is not an excuse to do nothing...I only think these things because I want to do too much/have a heart for things that God hasn't necessarily opened the doors for me yet...if you knwo what I mean)
In the end, I really liked last weeks sermon on the vine and the branches. The thing that stuck out to me the most (related to this topic) was that we are branches and our purpose is to bear Christ's fruit! and we shouldn't be worried about how effective or how tasty the fruit is, but just worry about bearing the fruit and having faith in the Vine, Jesus, that the fruit will be effective! and yah! this was encouraging to me! because I sometimes find myself caught in a thing where I think so much about the effectiveness of something that I don't bear it anymore...and that's the wrong mindset because God has His own plans and knows exactly whats happening and knows what is most effective even though we don't!
Faith...is just one of those interesting things that you can't learn enough about!
sry if everything was mumble jumbled up here! LOL haven't blogged in a while so my mind is like spaghetti atm! LOL
SICKKKK...
HI hannahhh!! this is for you!!! haha
Anyways, so this morning I woke up and realized that I had a stuffed nose and a sore throat... and i'm like... DANNNGGG cos honestly, I haven't felt sick in the longest time!!! like actually though! I usually don't get sick! and i realized that physical sickness is like...such a humbling experience LOL hmm i don't know how to explain! but if you haven't been sick in a long time, you sort of feel strong/independent/good and stuff you know? but once you get sick, all those feelings disappear and you feel week/dependent/crappy LOL and yeah!! it's definitely humbling! you realized that you can't do everything by urself, you realize that you start wanting to depend on something else and yeah!! its like a good thing!
Iunno why, but it sort of gave me a new perspective of God! or, a good reminder of who God is because when i am weak, I am strong! When I don't depend on myself, but depend on God to get me through the day, I am strong! When I stop saying "i can" and say "He can", I am strong!
but yeah! eating a Halls now! haha and it feels pretty great! I always love it how God uses the most random things in my life to remind me to depend on Him...and Him alone! nothing else!
okay dang, i don't know what to talk about now LOL
HI HANNAH! :D:D haha you're probably the only one reading this! haha
Anyways, so this morning I woke up and realized that I had a stuffed nose and a sore throat... and i'm like... DANNNGGG cos honestly, I haven't felt sick in the longest time!!! like actually though! I usually don't get sick! and i realized that physical sickness is like...such a humbling experience LOL hmm i don't know how to explain! but if you haven't been sick in a long time, you sort of feel strong/independent/good and stuff you know? but once you get sick, all those feelings disappear and you feel week/dependent/crappy LOL and yeah!! it's definitely humbling! you realized that you can't do everything by urself, you realize that you start wanting to depend on something else and yeah!! its like a good thing!
Iunno why, but it sort of gave me a new perspective of God! or, a good reminder of who God is because when i am weak, I am strong! When I don't depend on myself, but depend on God to get me through the day, I am strong! When I stop saying "i can" and say "He can", I am strong!
but yeah! eating a Halls now! haha and it feels pretty great! I always love it how God uses the most random things in my life to remind me to depend on Him...and Him alone! nothing else!
okay dang, i don't know what to talk about now LOL
HI HANNAH! :D:D haha you're probably the only one reading this! haha
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Jacks last night!
So yesterday, I went to Jacks and had a great time!! haha okay, honestly, the tiem we went was wayy too packed and it made it hard for the waitress!!! but, I still had a good time and the wings are cheap, as always! :)
I think my highlight was the waitress! She was super nice to me!! haha maybe a little flirty, but at the same time, super nice and cute! haha and she smelled nice! I personally thought she was just super friendly and nice, but ppl thought she was flirting...though i don't think she fully was! and the fact I talked back to her, apparently that made me flirting with her as well! LOL jokess...def wasn't intentional! But it was fun! her name was chelsea cos we exchanged names and stuff! though, we really didn't talk a lot! oh and she gave me a hug before i left! haha that was cute too! I sort of wish we could have become friends/met at some place other than a bar! but it's aigght! prob won't ever see her again in my life!
Ever since yesterday though, I couldn't stop thinking about her eternity and where she will going in the future...I really have no idea, but I want to pray for her! And I really pray that she'll be able to experience God's spirit working in her life!
Iunno though! I feel like i wish I felt this way about everyone! that I strongly wished everyone would one day know Christ! .... not just girls that I found physically attractive with fun/cute personalities! Even the scarier/colder ones! Though, I generally do have more of a heart of the fun/cute ppl, I pray that God will work in me and give me a desire for everyone else as well! I don't know why God put this girl in my life, but I hope she knew I was a Christian, I hope someone tells her about Christ and shares the gospel with her, and I hope that one day, Jesus will be her everything!
This sort of reminded me of my heart of celebrities/ppl who just have everything (worldly things)! I don't know why, but I've always wanted to reach out to ppl who had everything in this world...and therefore had nothing! because knowing God is everything! I feel like those pple are the ppl that think they are content, but I believe you need to know God to be satisfied, content and etc!
Anyways, I hope I can pray for this girl! and that my motives won't be bad...even if they aren't perfect, I pray that God will make them pure and holy!
btw haha i know! sorry for the really random/awkward blogpostt!!! haha
jireh!!!
I think my highlight was the waitress! She was super nice to me!! haha maybe a little flirty, but at the same time, super nice and cute! haha and she smelled nice! I personally thought she was just super friendly and nice, but ppl thought she was flirting...though i don't think she fully was! and the fact I talked back to her, apparently that made me flirting with her as well! LOL jokess...def wasn't intentional! But it was fun! her name was chelsea cos we exchanged names and stuff! though, we really didn't talk a lot! oh and she gave me a hug before i left! haha that was cute too! I sort of wish we could have become friends/met at some place other than a bar! but it's aigght! prob won't ever see her again in my life!
Ever since yesterday though, I couldn't stop thinking about her eternity and where she will going in the future...I really have no idea, but I want to pray for her! And I really pray that she'll be able to experience God's spirit working in her life!
Iunno though! I feel like i wish I felt this way about everyone! that I strongly wished everyone would one day know Christ! .... not just girls that I found physically attractive with fun/cute personalities! Even the scarier/colder ones! Though, I generally do have more of a heart of the fun/cute ppl, I pray that God will work in me and give me a desire for everyone else as well! I don't know why God put this girl in my life, but I hope she knew I was a Christian, I hope someone tells her about Christ and shares the gospel with her, and I hope that one day, Jesus will be her everything!
This sort of reminded me of my heart of celebrities/ppl who just have everything (worldly things)! I don't know why, but I've always wanted to reach out to ppl who had everything in this world...and therefore had nothing! because knowing God is everything! I feel like those pple are the ppl that think they are content, but I believe you need to know God to be satisfied, content and etc!
Anyways, I hope I can pray for this girl! and that my motives won't be bad...even if they aren't perfect, I pray that God will make them pure and holy!
btw haha i know! sorry for the really random/awkward blogpostt!!! haha
jireh!!!
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Peaceful and joyful!
Man, I don't know how to even explain this!! for omgoodness!! there is sooo much joy that comes with peace!!! I'm ususally a super happy dude in general, but when I get that peace that transcends from God...dangg!! you are just filled with this immense joy that you sort of can't explain!! and you just want to tell everyone ur just happy! and so satisfied in Him! haha
Anyways, recently, God gave me a vision!!! as in like, I know what I need to do! Like, i don't know how to explain it! I just feel like God gave me direction with my life and i feel so much better about it! Liikke I feel like i know what i need to do...like with everything! like with school, with my career, with my DG, just with things in general!! i just have this...immense peace about everything! it's super weird, but i'm so grateful! haha it's weird cos i got peace but at the same time motivation?! you know? aha! it's hard to explain! but i just feel so grateful that God has been working in my life without me really realizing it!...and then it sort of hits!
Anyways, I'm just happy! Can't wait for everything! as in like.. i'm just excited for everything! haha excited to move on with life, excited for school so i can glorify God in my studies, excited for my future job so i can glorify God in my workplace, excited for my future wife so I can glorify God in how i lead and serve her, excited for my future family so I can glorify God in providing for them in all aspects and excited to die and meet God and be sanctified!! Just so excited! and I'm just so glad God has given me vision for the future! now, I got to live it out!...the hardest part! but i know He will be with me the whole time! :)
Smile! :D
Jireh!
Anyways, recently, God gave me a vision!!! as in like, I know what I need to do! Like, i don't know how to explain it! I just feel like God gave me direction with my life and i feel so much better about it! Liikke I feel like i know what i need to do...like with everything! like with school, with my career, with my DG, just with things in general!! i just have this...immense peace about everything! it's super weird, but i'm so grateful! haha it's weird cos i got peace but at the same time motivation?! you know? aha! it's hard to explain! but i just feel so grateful that God has been working in my life without me really realizing it!...and then it sort of hits!
Anyways, I'm just happy! Can't wait for everything! as in like.. i'm just excited for everything! haha excited to move on with life, excited for school so i can glorify God in my studies, excited for my future job so i can glorify God in my workplace, excited for my future wife so I can glorify God in how i lead and serve her, excited for my future family so I can glorify God in providing for them in all aspects and excited to die and meet God and be sanctified!! Just so excited! and I'm just so glad God has given me vision for the future! now, I got to live it out!...the hardest part! but i know He will be with me the whole time! :)
Smile! :D
Jireh!
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
7 ways to pray for your heart
http://www.desiringgod.org/blog/posts/seven-ways-to-pray-for-your-heart
been going over this recently! it's nice
Jireh!
been going over this recently! it's nice
Jireh!
Sunday, June 23, 2013
Gideon Bibles
So during my job, I've been to many different hotels!!! like, a lot of them! and I find it sooo amazing how often I see a Gideon bible in the rooms!! It's actually so great!! I'm at a hotel in Gravenhurst atm, an the bible is NASB! I find it so wonderful! that they would have a bible in every room! It's actually such a great ministry! Cos God works so powerfully through His Word!! I just really pray that people who don't know God would be interested randomly while staying at hotels, and just read the word!!!
yeahh, i know bibles are all accessible online and stuff, but honestly, even to me, it's so different! reading the bible when its like a book, vs it being online! but yea!! just makes me happy! :D
Jireh!
yeahh, i know bibles are all accessible online and stuff, but honestly, even to me, it's so different! reading the bible when its like a book, vs it being online! but yea!! just makes me happy! :D
Jireh!
Monday, June 10, 2013
reminding myself
Yesterday, I wanted to comfort/encourage a friend and gave him 3 songs! the 3 songs that have had so much meaning in my life during my third year of university. The songs were the following:
Lay Me Down
Forever Reign
All I Have is Christ
and wow...just listening to those songs reminded me so much of what I've learned...
Like really! the lyrics of all of them are so convicting! and I guess, if you think about it, those 3 songs are actually super connected! It starts off with lay me down...The conviction that you have in your heart when you realize that you are not your own and you belong to God alone! When you realize all you can, should and want to do is lay your life down to God! Not to anything else, but to Him alone! because you know that He has the best plan for you, and He loves you.
And in times of hardship, when you don't know what to say, you say, "you are good, you are good when there's nothing good in me" When you lay down your life to God, He is everything for you! He is good, love, light, hope, peace, true, joy, life, more, Lord, here, God and just moree! And all you can do is run into his arms because he loves you! When you have left this world behind you, laid down your life to God, and run into his arms because He is everything, you then realize something so beautiful...that all you have is Christ!
You are in his arms! and you are free from this world, free from sin, but in His presence and you are just in awe of His greatness and majesty and his love. And all you can say is "Hallelujah! All i have is Christ!! Hallelujah! Jesus is my life!!" and this world grows dim, and knowing Jesus is all that matters to you!
I pray that when the time comes, I will be able to lay down my life to God! Like in Job, I need to realize that the Lord gives and the Lord takes away!...and to find joy even when he takes away because I know God has a plan! He knows. I pray I will be able to truly say with joy "Your will, your way, ALWAYS!"
Jireh :)
Lay Me Down
Forever Reign
All I Have is Christ
and wow...just listening to those songs reminded me so much of what I've learned...
Like really! the lyrics of all of them are so convicting! and I guess, if you think about it, those 3 songs are actually super connected! It starts off with lay me down...The conviction that you have in your heart when you realize that you are not your own and you belong to God alone! When you realize all you can, should and want to do is lay your life down to God! Not to anything else, but to Him alone! because you know that He has the best plan for you, and He loves you.
And in times of hardship, when you don't know what to say, you say, "you are good, you are good when there's nothing good in me" When you lay down your life to God, He is everything for you! He is good, love, light, hope, peace, true, joy, life, more, Lord, here, God and just moree! And all you can do is run into his arms because he loves you! When you have left this world behind you, laid down your life to God, and run into his arms because He is everything, you then realize something so beautiful...that all you have is Christ!
You are in his arms! and you are free from this world, free from sin, but in His presence and you are just in awe of His greatness and majesty and his love. And all you can say is "Hallelujah! All i have is Christ!! Hallelujah! Jesus is my life!!" and this world grows dim, and knowing Jesus is all that matters to you!
I pray that when the time comes, I will be able to lay down my life to God! Like in Job, I need to realize that the Lord gives and the Lord takes away!...and to find joy even when he takes away because I know God has a plan! He knows. I pray I will be able to truly say with joy "Your will, your way, ALWAYS!"
Jireh :)
Monday, May 27, 2013
Truck drivers!! :D
Though I’ve realized this before, I keep re-realizing
things! Haah! Work is truly a mission field and I need prayer!!! Not just for
myself, but for everyone I interact with! That God will touch their hearts and
work in them! So if you don’t mind reading the following, I’d appreciate it if
you prayed for me and everything! ahah
So, work today was super interesting!! Cept tiring, cos I
worked 9 hours…butttt, for the first bit, I was wearing my ACF sweater cos it
was cold. In the front, there’s a
cross and it says “rooted in Christ” and on the back, a bible verse from Col.
2:6-7 I think…haha! Anyway, I remember a while back, (2 weeks ago), I shared
the gospel and talked to my co-worker about God! And it was so cool…just seeing
God work and being super faithful to me, though I was sort of scared! At the time, I told ppl about it and
they prayed for him! And some of them were sort of joking around and said, you
should share the gospel with truck drivers! And I’m like…”uhh, probably not the
best time to talk to them about the gospel…but if God opens the door, I’ll go
through it” So then, I guess,
later that day, I prayed to God that He would continue opening doors for me to
be a light and share to others about Him!
So as the weeks passed, I guess I forgot about that prayer until God
opened the door for me today!! Haha!
So, while I was wearing that sweater, one of the truck
drivers starting talking about church/going to church/his friends and
stuff…saying things like “you should never be forced to do something you don’t
want to do” and it was interesting!!! Haha! At that point I realized… “nice, he
know’s I’m a Christian! Lol let’s talk!!” I thought about just continuing with
the survey and being “professional” but then I thought about it again and I’m
like… who cares!?!? In the whole scheme of things, this man’s salvation is a
million times more important than…”being professional”! so I started talking to
him! Sort of snuck in the gospel!.. the need for God, how God sent his son for
us, and how we just need to believe to be saved. He knew all these things, but I think his heart has been
hardened by the fact that he’s seen many of his “Christian” friends who just
aren’t good examples and “devoted” their life to God too much. When he described it, to me, it just
seemed like they were not being good stewarts of their money. They were not “working as if working
for the Lord”…they were using God as an excuse to be lazy about their lives and
be a bad witness to this man! I’m
glad he said he’s still open to go to church and stuff, but it hurts my heart
seeing this man for some reason! And I really wanna ask you all to just pray
for him! His name is Don. Pray
that God would soften his heart to His Spirit! I recommended him to go to a Harvest church because I know
they are good for the most part!
So really pray that he will take that step and that God will use people in
his life to bring him closer! I
really pray that God will pursue him!
I think the scariest thing about sharing the gospel with
strangers is that you always wish you said more! Since we didn’t share contact information, we are literally
planting the seed, and praying and knowing that God will be faithful and water
it if it needs! I don’t know if I’ll
ever see Don again, but I pray, that if I do, it will be us rejoicing together
and praising God together in heaven! :)
Saturday, May 25, 2013
LONG TRIPS!
HAHA long trips all alone sort of make me unsociable!!
So I started the trip off with seeing a mustang cheerleader who was a girl, and I ALMOST said hi to her! LOL i didn't cos i didn't know her...but i'm pretty sure she saw me staring at her! haha i only knew cos she was wearing the alibi sweater! haha anyways, since i didn't end up saying anything to her or anybody, I essentially sat in the train and said nothing the whole time...except for a few phone calls i made to my family regarding rides and stuff!
but OH MAN!! i feel like i almost forgot to speak! AHHA and boy, i feel like my mind has not thought of as many things as it has now in so long!!! like, i like alone time, but sometimes, i feel like it literally hurts my brain! HAAH like its a mental challenge!!!! sometimes, I wonder if studying is actually what's so hard for me? or if it's just not saying anything while i'm conscious for more than an hour!! I guess, I truly am an extrovert! all this time, I was convince that I was a loud extrovert...I do like my alone time, but really, not that much! maybe 1 hr per day is good for me! outside of that, I prefer to be in the company of friends and family and just fellowship together!
I'm not going to say I hate being alone because I am never alone! and I know God has been using this time to teach me so many things, but all this time alone (living alone in hotels, long train trips and etc) has made me realize that I enjoy the company of others!
And, okay, lol just to clarify...I'm not saying this because I'd rather be with friends/family over God...but I just love fellowship and being with ppl i love! (btw, i see the moon right now and it looks suupper cool! ahah) and yeah!! but yeah i do like my alone time here and there! it is very much needed sometimes! haha
anyways, I hope i didn't forget how to speak to ppl! OMG on that note, i forgot how to write the number "5" HAAHAH! it was so weird today!! i was doing the log book and i wrote out 5 a couple of times, then i thought about writing a 5, and i couldn't figure out how to write it without it looking like i a preschooler who just learned how to write!! haha anyways, so jokes!! I'm pretty much in toronto now!! see you laterrr!!
Jireh!
So I started the trip off with seeing a mustang cheerleader who was a girl, and I ALMOST said hi to her! LOL i didn't cos i didn't know her...but i'm pretty sure she saw me staring at her! haha i only knew cos she was wearing the alibi sweater! haha anyways, since i didn't end up saying anything to her or anybody, I essentially sat in the train and said nothing the whole time...except for a few phone calls i made to my family regarding rides and stuff!
but OH MAN!! i feel like i almost forgot to speak! AHHA and boy, i feel like my mind has not thought of as many things as it has now in so long!!! like, i like alone time, but sometimes, i feel like it literally hurts my brain! HAAH like its a mental challenge!!!! sometimes, I wonder if studying is actually what's so hard for me? or if it's just not saying anything while i'm conscious for more than an hour!! I guess, I truly am an extrovert! all this time, I was convince that I was a loud extrovert...I do like my alone time, but really, not that much! maybe 1 hr per day is good for me! outside of that, I prefer to be in the company of friends and family and just fellowship together!
I'm not going to say I hate being alone because I am never alone! and I know God has been using this time to teach me so many things, but all this time alone (living alone in hotels, long train trips and etc) has made me realize that I enjoy the company of others!
And, okay, lol just to clarify...I'm not saying this because I'd rather be with friends/family over God...but I just love fellowship and being with ppl i love! (btw, i see the moon right now and it looks suupper cool! ahah) and yeah!! but yeah i do like my alone time here and there! it is very much needed sometimes! haha
anyways, I hope i didn't forget how to speak to ppl! OMG on that note, i forgot how to write the number "5" HAAHAH! it was so weird today!! i was doing the log book and i wrote out 5 a couple of times, then i thought about writing a 5, and i couldn't figure out how to write it without it looking like i a preschooler who just learned how to write!! haha anyways, so jokes!! I'm pretty much in toronto now!! see you laterrr!!
Jireh!
VOD: Genesis 39:17-18
Genesis 39:17-18
Then she told him this story: “That Hebrew slave you brought us came to me to make sport of me. But as soon as I screamed for help, he left his cloak beside me and ran out of the house.”
This past Tuesday, I had a time to talk and share with brothers in Christ, and one of them talked about Potiphar's wife.
For those that don't know the background story here, you can either read Genesis 39 for all the deets, or my short summary...
Joseph is a slave, but his master likes him so put him in charge of everything he owns except for his wife obviously. One day, he leaves and his wife approaches Joseph (cos he's good looking) and asks him to sleep with her and he says "no". She becomes persistent and he comes to the point where he avoids her. One day, she grabs her cloak and used it against him...which leads us to the verse above!
I guess the important thing to get out of this was that although the wife here seems like she's innocent and good, she is not. She is putting on a show. On the outside she is crying out and screaming for help, she is telling her servants and her husband these things, but on the inside, she is not that way.
So, I guess the question that comes in here is "do you hate sin?" or do you "scream for help" when you sin? Is your heart changed? or do you just put on a show? When you pray for a sin in your life, do you pray and hate the sin? I feel like you get my point...cos it's so interesting!! If God was my number one priority in life, if he was the soul most important thing in my life, anything that blocked me from His presence I would want to tear away because He is just so great and I don't want anything to block me from Him!
I pray that God would give me hatred for what He hates. That I wouldn't be like...oh everyone sins...but hate sin. Instead of focussing on sin, focussing on God and all of His greatness and righteousness! :)
Not sure if this blog makes sense...thoughts are still sort of jumbled, but I hope you get the point! :)
Jireh!
Then she told him this story: “That Hebrew slave you brought us came to me to make sport of me. But as soon as I screamed for help, he left his cloak beside me and ran out of the house.”
This past Tuesday, I had a time to talk and share with brothers in Christ, and one of them talked about Potiphar's wife.
For those that don't know the background story here, you can either read Genesis 39 for all the deets, or my short summary...
Joseph is a slave, but his master likes him so put him in charge of everything he owns except for his wife obviously. One day, he leaves and his wife approaches Joseph (cos he's good looking) and asks him to sleep with her and he says "no". She becomes persistent and he comes to the point where he avoids her. One day, she grabs her cloak and used it against him...which leads us to the verse above!
I guess the important thing to get out of this was that although the wife here seems like she's innocent and good, she is not. She is putting on a show. On the outside she is crying out and screaming for help, she is telling her servants and her husband these things, but on the inside, she is not that way.
So, I guess the question that comes in here is "do you hate sin?" or do you "scream for help" when you sin? Is your heart changed? or do you just put on a show? When you pray for a sin in your life, do you pray and hate the sin? I feel like you get my point...cos it's so interesting!! If God was my number one priority in life, if he was the soul most important thing in my life, anything that blocked me from His presence I would want to tear away because He is just so great and I don't want anything to block me from Him!
I pray that God would give me hatred for what He hates. That I wouldn't be like...oh everyone sins...but hate sin. Instead of focussing on sin, focussing on God and all of His greatness and righteousness! :)
Not sure if this blog makes sense...thoughts are still sort of jumbled, but I hope you get the point! :)
Jireh!
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
VOD: Matt 6:33
Matthew 6:33
"But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."
I feel like everyone knows this verse, but sometimes takes this verse for granted! There is so much power...so much faith involved in living out this verse...To seek God FIRST! to have faith that when you seek God first, all these things (worldly things, and such) will come as well! It's so true that sometimes, we prioritize other things in our life...Food, school, family, girls/guys, friends...stuff! lol but even the most basic things like food. You hunger for food physically and you eat it. Does your spirit hunger God? If you miss a "meal" does your body notice? Or have you become numb? I know that when i don't eat for a day...the first parts are the worst!!! i feel super hungry.. but then, after a little while, i lose my hunger pains and my stomach feels numb...literally! Seeking God first is so important! Being sensitive to the Spirit has so much value! Jesus tells us to seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and to have faith that once you do that, all other things will be added to you as well!
Just for clarity, I'm not saying that you should go on not caring about anything except for God because that would be contradictory to what God wants! He doesn't want you to starve your body because you don't care about it...your body is a temple! He doesn't want you to not care about school/work...we are called to work at everything as if working for God! but once you seek God, all these things will make sense...they will sort of fall into place if you truly seek God for seeking God!
:)
"But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."
I feel like everyone knows this verse, but sometimes takes this verse for granted! There is so much power...so much faith involved in living out this verse...To seek God FIRST! to have faith that when you seek God first, all these things (worldly things, and such) will come as well! It's so true that sometimes, we prioritize other things in our life...Food, school, family, girls/guys, friends...stuff! lol but even the most basic things like food. You hunger for food physically and you eat it. Does your spirit hunger God? If you miss a "meal" does your body notice? Or have you become numb? I know that when i don't eat for a day...the first parts are the worst!!! i feel super hungry.. but then, after a little while, i lose my hunger pains and my stomach feels numb...literally! Seeking God first is so important! Being sensitive to the Spirit has so much value! Jesus tells us to seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and to have faith that once you do that, all other things will be added to you as well!
Just for clarity, I'm not saying that you should go on not caring about anything except for God because that would be contradictory to what God wants! He doesn't want you to starve your body because you don't care about it...your body is a temple! He doesn't want you to not care about school/work...we are called to work at everything as if working for God! but once you seek God, all these things will make sense...they will sort of fall into place if you truly seek God for seeking God!
:)
VOD: Psalms 139:23-24 (yesterdays)
So yesterday, I came across this verse:
Psalms 139:23-24
"Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!"
And I was sort of thinking to myself!...would I actually say that?! haha "search me, O God, and know my heart!" I almost prefer if not! because my heart is evil! "try me and know my thoughts!" my thoughts are evil too... LOL "and see if there be any grievous way in me"... I am 100% sure there are grievous ways in me!! I guess, what I would say is "lead me in the way everlasting!" because I would want my life to be led by God!
Sometimes I wonder if I could ever say those words...just because I feel like it may almost always be rhetorical! My heart and my thought and my ways will always be sinful...and it's almost embarrassing to ask God to look at and search them! And it's so true I guess, if God looks at me and sees me...in His eyes, it's probably like some black mess of sinfulness...just cos He's just so perfect! Which then reminds me of God's grace to me! And Imputed righteousness!! Christ imputing His righteousness onto us, and us imputing our sin onto Him. Because of Jesus, and because of what He has done for me, I can say those words! Because of Jesus, God can look at me and see Jesus. I'm not saying that I'm perfect, or that because of Jesus I can do whatever I want...we are called to press on towards sanctification! but, it's always so great...thinking of God's grace and what He has done for me. No longer a slave to sin, but a slave to righteousness and obedience to God! :)
Psalms 139:23-24
"Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!"
And I was sort of thinking to myself!...would I actually say that?! haha "search me, O God, and know my heart!" I almost prefer if not! because my heart is evil! "try me and know my thoughts!" my thoughts are evil too... LOL "and see if there be any grievous way in me"... I am 100% sure there are grievous ways in me!! I guess, what I would say is "lead me in the way everlasting!" because I would want my life to be led by God!
Sometimes I wonder if I could ever say those words...just because I feel like it may almost always be rhetorical! My heart and my thought and my ways will always be sinful...and it's almost embarrassing to ask God to look at and search them! And it's so true I guess, if God looks at me and sees me...in His eyes, it's probably like some black mess of sinfulness...just cos He's just so perfect! Which then reminds me of God's grace to me! And Imputed righteousness!! Christ imputing His righteousness onto us, and us imputing our sin onto Him. Because of Jesus, and because of what He has done for me, I can say those words! Because of Jesus, God can look at me and see Jesus. I'm not saying that I'm perfect, or that because of Jesus I can do whatever I want...we are called to press on towards sanctification! but, it's always so great...thinking of God's grace and what He has done for me. No longer a slave to sin, but a slave to righteousness and obedience to God! :)
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
this is an excerpt from today's devo "my utmost for his highest"
"We have no right to decide where we should be placed, or to have preconceived ideas as to what God is preparing us to do. God engineers everything; and wherever He places us, our one supreme goal should be to pour out our lives in wholehearted devotion to Him in that particular work. “Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might . . .” (Ecclesiastes 9:10)"
pretty powerful! Things to think about... just thought I'd post it!! :D
Jireh
"We have no right to decide where we should be placed, or to have preconceived ideas as to what God is preparing us to do. God engineers everything; and wherever He places us, our one supreme goal should be to pour out our lives in wholehearted devotion to Him in that particular work. “Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might . . .” (Ecclesiastes 9:10)"
pretty powerful! Things to think about... just thought I'd post it!! :D
Jireh
Monday, April 22, 2013
Worth it all
Wow...
So I saw my friend post this to other friends of mine on facebook and decided to just check it out...cos i figured it'd probably be a good song. And, it's actually so powerful!
It actually sort of summarizes up my fave verse (Philippians 3:7-11) and puts it into a song!
It's actually somehting i've been thinking of a lot too! so it's just really interesting! Very encouraging to me!! I really like how God uses random things to remind me of Him!
Phil 3:7-11
7 But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. 8 Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith— 10 that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead.
Okay, so here's the song
Lyrics:
All I am Lord here before You
Reaching out for more
You're the promise never failing
You are my reward,
Jesus, You are my reward
I let go of all I have just to have all of You
And no matter what the cost I will follow You
Jesus everything I've lost I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I'll say
You are worth it all
There's no riches or earthly treasure
That will satisfy
Every longing is for You Jesus
Set this heart on fire
Oh, set this heart on fire
I let go of all I have just to have all of You
And no matter what the cost I will follow You
Jesus everything I've lost I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I'll say
You are worth it all
You are worth it all
When I'm there in Your glorious presence
Every knee is bowed before You
Hear the sound of heaven singing
You are worth it all
All the saints cry holy holy
Angels singing worthy worthy
Forever I will shout Your praises
You are worth it all
When I'm there in Your glorious presence
Every knee is bowed before You
Hear the sound of heaven singing
You are worth it all
All the saints cry holy holy
Angels singing worthy worthy
Forever I will shout Your praises
You are worth it all
You are worth it all
I let go of all I have just to have all of You
And no matter what the cost I will follow You
Jesus everything I've lost I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I'll say
I let go of all I have just to have all of You
And no matter what the cost I will follow You
Jesus everything I've lost I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I'll say
You are worth it all
You are worth it all
You are worth it all
Jesus, You're worth it all
So I saw my friend post this to other friends of mine on facebook and decided to just check it out...cos i figured it'd probably be a good song. And, it's actually so powerful!
It actually sort of summarizes up my fave verse (Philippians 3:7-11) and puts it into a song!
It's actually somehting i've been thinking of a lot too! so it's just really interesting! Very encouraging to me!! I really like how God uses random things to remind me of Him!
Phil 3:7-11
7 But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. 8 Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith— 10 that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead.
Okay, so here's the song
All I am Lord here before You
Reaching out for more
You're the promise never failing
You are my reward,
Jesus, You are my reward
I let go of all I have just to have all of You
And no matter what the cost I will follow You
Jesus everything I've lost I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I'll say
You are worth it all
There's no riches or earthly treasure
That will satisfy
Every longing is for You Jesus
Set this heart on fire
Oh, set this heart on fire
I let go of all I have just to have all of You
And no matter what the cost I will follow You
Jesus everything I've lost I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I'll say
You are worth it all
You are worth it all
When I'm there in Your glorious presence
Every knee is bowed before You
Hear the sound of heaven singing
You are worth it all
All the saints cry holy holy
Angels singing worthy worthy
Forever I will shout Your praises
You are worth it all
When I'm there in Your glorious presence
Every knee is bowed before You
Hear the sound of heaven singing
You are worth it all
All the saints cry holy holy
Angels singing worthy worthy
Forever I will shout Your praises
You are worth it all
You are worth it all
I let go of all I have just to have all of You
And no matter what the cost I will follow You
Jesus everything I've lost I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I'll say
I let go of all I have just to have all of You
And no matter what the cost I will follow You
Jesus everything I've lost I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I'll say
You are worth it all
You are worth it all
You are worth it all
Jesus, You're worth it all
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Utmost
My Utmost for His Highest always gets me!! i don't read it everyday, but when I do read it, it convicts!!! today's devotion was the following
http://utmost.org/all-or-nothing/
I almsot didn't read it! LOL i clicked the link by accident! LOl but i was like, oh, its actually super short! LOL I might as well read it! so i did! and man...I feel convicted! basically, I guess there was something in my life that I'm supposed to do, but i kept putting it on the backburner cos the more I thought about it, the more it, I guess, emotionally hurt me! lol but this reminded me to just focus on God and let ur convictions just happen! and when obeying God, its not about emotions! When u are fully committed to Christ, you are giving Him your will - being obedient to Him alone...not ur heart or ur emotions! but yeah! like it says, i just need to focus on maintaining my intimate relationship with Him and when He wants me to do things, I will do them!
Jireh! :)
http://utmost.org/all-or-nothing/
I almsot didn't read it! LOL i clicked the link by accident! LOl but i was like, oh, its actually super short! LOL I might as well read it! so i did! and man...I feel convicted! basically, I guess there was something in my life that I'm supposed to do, but i kept putting it on the backburner cos the more I thought about it, the more it, I guess, emotionally hurt me! lol but this reminded me to just focus on God and let ur convictions just happen! and when obeying God, its not about emotions! When u are fully committed to Christ, you are giving Him your will - being obedient to Him alone...not ur heart or ur emotions! but yeah! like it says, i just need to focus on maintaining my intimate relationship with Him and when He wants me to do things, I will do them!
Jireh! :)
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Okay, so this post may get a little controversial, but it's something that is weighing on my heart right now!
Just now, I was going through facebook and saw a friend post this thing about ppl being against gay marriages and does like the "eye-roll/these ppl are idiots" thing. Since it is an interesting topic and I wanted to see what ppl had to say, I checked out the link. WHich led to another link about the same stuff...just ppl from random colleges or something in the states holding some paper thing with their reasons for believing that marriage should be between a man and woman.
Anyways, I looked through the comments and stuff, and yeah man, people really do bash Christians! haha! I know for sure, that Christians have probably bashed at non-Christians, and as a Christian I do apologize for that. But yeah! it was interesting. One interesting thing I saw was, "try to explain why gay marriage is wrong without using, God, bible or that kind of lingo" and in my mind i'm like, "well, you sort of can't"...but that doesn't matter...because that's what it's all about. One girl's reason on her paper thing was Romans 1:26-27. Here, I feel like it's pretty clear that God didn't intend for marriage to be between two ppl of the same sex. What this really comes down to is whether or not you believe in God. Are you a slave to righteousness? or are you a slave to sin? Romans 6:20 says "when you were slaves to sin, you were free from the control of righteousness." if you read Romans 6, the 2nd half of it, you see that we are either slaves to sin, or slaves to righteousness. But, being slaves to one of them, also means being free from the other. So, as a Christian, I'm a slave to righteousness, striving to be free from sin. and I guess, if your are a slave to sin, you are free from the control of righteousness...
so yeah, it comes down to who is your master? and who are you free from? if you are free from righteousness, then I think it makes sense that you don't find anything wrong with gay marriages...or find it right for that matter. But if you are free from sin, and belong to Christ, the Holy Spirit should convict you through prayer and God's word.
hmm another thing that was brought up was if being gay is a choice or not. I guess defining what a choice is would be important. Like, when I sin...is that a choice? I think it is. but I also believe that we are biased to sin. we have a natural proclivity to sin which is why we all sin (romans 3:23). If you say that choices are easy to control...then try choosing to be perfect for a week...i'm pretty sure that's not possible...does that mean you didn't get a choice? no...i don't think so.. I feel like we got a choice, but we chose wrong because of our sinful nature. I do believe gayness is a sin, something I personally don't struggle with, but it's also not worse than any other sin. Like any sin, ppl struggle with it. I struggle iwth my own sins and I know I will never be perfect, but I press on towards that goal Christ has called me to! I think it's normal for ppl to be gay. in the same way I think its normal for ppl to want to lie, or get angry, or lust, or have bad thoughts in their minds! It's normal, becaseu we are human, but it doesn't make it right.
Okay, my last thing i wanna say... okay...so what really hurt me the most was this comment I saw...
"When are people going to realize "because god says so" isn't a relevant answer? God's word means
NOTHING to man's laws and that's the way it needs to stay, or else we become the Middle East."
"Well since the christian god doesn't really even exist,.. I could CARE LESS what he thinks or says let alone the followers of the mythology... "
"Christianity is a Virus in need of a CURE..."
So these comments were all from the same string...
umm...all I can say is that as Christians we are called to spread the gospel and give glory to God! Essentially, we know that God is real. And we want to share Him with as many people as possible! Not because we have to...but becasue we love them because Christ loved us first! Everything we do as Christians is driven from the love God has for us and demonstrated to us through Jesus! We don't have to share the gospel, but we do becasue of our love for God and our love for His people! It would be less loving (from our perspective), to know the truth and not share it.
At the same time, we are meant to be salt and light! I actually think its fine if non-christians bash christians, because Jesus was pretty clear when He said that the world will persecute us. But, I hate it when I see the opposite, or hear stories of the opposite! We are not to bash others. We are to proclaim the truth in LOVE. We are called to be salt and light! We are called to be in the world but NOT of it! Matthew 5:16 "In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven." So taht they can GLORIFY God! we need to be an example. how can people who don't know God, who get bashed by us who know God, glorify God? makes no sense. LOL
the guy who said those hurtful comments above went through persecution from the church! or saw all the bad works we've done. Let me be clear here...When I said the comments hurt me, those words did not hurt me. I was just so sad that someone's heart has been so hardened to the point that they would say something like that!...THAT person grew up in a church!...it's actually just so sad... :( I want God to touch that person again and soften his heart. It really breaks my heart when I know there are people like that...becaseu of what we, as Christians, have done.
anyways, this post is long enough! I think i said everythign i wanted to say.
Just now, I was going through facebook and saw a friend post this thing about ppl being against gay marriages and does like the "eye-roll/these ppl are idiots" thing. Since it is an interesting topic and I wanted to see what ppl had to say, I checked out the link. WHich led to another link about the same stuff...just ppl from random colleges or something in the states holding some paper thing with their reasons for believing that marriage should be between a man and woman.
Anyways, I looked through the comments and stuff, and yeah man, people really do bash Christians! haha! I know for sure, that Christians have probably bashed at non-Christians, and as a Christian I do apologize for that. But yeah! it was interesting. One interesting thing I saw was, "try to explain why gay marriage is wrong without using, God, bible or that kind of lingo" and in my mind i'm like, "well, you sort of can't"...but that doesn't matter...because that's what it's all about. One girl's reason on her paper thing was Romans 1:26-27. Here, I feel like it's pretty clear that God didn't intend for marriage to be between two ppl of the same sex. What this really comes down to is whether or not you believe in God. Are you a slave to righteousness? or are you a slave to sin? Romans 6:20 says "when you were slaves to sin, you were free from the control of righteousness." if you read Romans 6, the 2nd half of it, you see that we are either slaves to sin, or slaves to righteousness. But, being slaves to one of them, also means being free from the other. So, as a Christian, I'm a slave to righteousness, striving to be free from sin. and I guess, if your are a slave to sin, you are free from the control of righteousness...
so yeah, it comes down to who is your master? and who are you free from? if you are free from righteousness, then I think it makes sense that you don't find anything wrong with gay marriages...or find it right for that matter. But if you are free from sin, and belong to Christ, the Holy Spirit should convict you through prayer and God's word.
hmm another thing that was brought up was if being gay is a choice or not. I guess defining what a choice is would be important. Like, when I sin...is that a choice? I think it is. but I also believe that we are biased to sin. we have a natural proclivity to sin which is why we all sin (romans 3:23). If you say that choices are easy to control...then try choosing to be perfect for a week...i'm pretty sure that's not possible...does that mean you didn't get a choice? no...i don't think so.. I feel like we got a choice, but we chose wrong because of our sinful nature. I do believe gayness is a sin, something I personally don't struggle with, but it's also not worse than any other sin. Like any sin, ppl struggle with it. I struggle iwth my own sins and I know I will never be perfect, but I press on towards that goal Christ has called me to! I think it's normal for ppl to be gay. in the same way I think its normal for ppl to want to lie, or get angry, or lust, or have bad thoughts in their minds! It's normal, becaseu we are human, but it doesn't make it right.
Okay, my last thing i wanna say... okay...so what really hurt me the most was this comment I saw...
"When are people going to realize "because god says so" isn't a relevant answer? God's word means
NOTHING to man's laws and that's the way it needs to stay, or else we become the Middle East."
"Well since the christian god doesn't really even exist,.. I could CARE LESS what he thinks or says let alone the followers of the mythology... "
"Christianity is a Virus in need of a CURE..."
So these comments were all from the same string...
umm...all I can say is that as Christians we are called to spread the gospel and give glory to God! Essentially, we know that God is real. And we want to share Him with as many people as possible! Not because we have to...but becasue we love them because Christ loved us first! Everything we do as Christians is driven from the love God has for us and demonstrated to us through Jesus! We don't have to share the gospel, but we do becasue of our love for God and our love for His people! It would be less loving (from our perspective), to know the truth and not share it.
At the same time, we are meant to be salt and light! I actually think its fine if non-christians bash christians, because Jesus was pretty clear when He said that the world will persecute us. But, I hate it when I see the opposite, or hear stories of the opposite! We are not to bash others. We are to proclaim the truth in LOVE. We are called to be salt and light! We are called to be in the world but NOT of it! Matthew 5:16 "In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven." So taht they can GLORIFY God! we need to be an example. how can people who don't know God, who get bashed by us who know God, glorify God? makes no sense. LOL
the guy who said those hurtful comments above went through persecution from the church! or saw all the bad works we've done. Let me be clear here...When I said the comments hurt me, those words did not hurt me. I was just so sad that someone's heart has been so hardened to the point that they would say something like that!...THAT person grew up in a church!...it's actually just so sad... :( I want God to touch that person again and soften his heart. It really breaks my heart when I know there are people like that...becaseu of what we, as Christians, have done.
anyways, this post is long enough! I think i said everythign i wanted to say.
Thursday, March 7, 2013
overthinking
Ignorance is bliss!
lol I'm starting to understand this statement more!!! haha! cos i believe when I think too much about certain things, it starts to get depressing! and starts to eat u up! I believe that there is a healthy amount of thinking and and unhealthy amount! If you don't think about it at all, and be completely ignorant, obviously that's bad because then you will never solve problems and it's just really irresponsible. But, if you think too much about things, you can overthink...and that can eat you up. You can start imagining detrimental things that aren't even happening but are happening in ur mind which then can affect the way things are actually happening in real life! hmm...so how do u know if ur overthinking something? iunno! I think you just need to think enough about it to know what you need to do and do it...and just stop thinking beyond that! the more you think, the more unecessary emotion you'll get into your mind and it'll screw you over! haha so yeah
Don't be too ignorant LOL but don't over think either!
lol I'm starting to understand this statement more!!! haha! cos i believe when I think too much about certain things, it starts to get depressing! and starts to eat u up! I believe that there is a healthy amount of thinking and and unhealthy amount! If you don't think about it at all, and be completely ignorant, obviously that's bad because then you will never solve problems and it's just really irresponsible. But, if you think too much about things, you can overthink...and that can eat you up. You can start imagining detrimental things that aren't even happening but are happening in ur mind which then can affect the way things are actually happening in real life! hmm...so how do u know if ur overthinking something? iunno! I think you just need to think enough about it to know what you need to do and do it...and just stop thinking beyond that! the more you think, the more unecessary emotion you'll get into your mind and it'll screw you over! haha so yeah
Don't be too ignorant LOL but don't over think either!
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Excheerleader!
LOL! Sometimes I miss being a cheerleader! Miss seeing the same ppl 5 times a week...miss crazy stupid practicing...miss ppl being pretty crude all the time LOL (not that i like it, but sort of miss it) and yeah! just the people! cos outside of my cheer friends, most of my friends are dedicated Christians! and it's just...different i guess!
I remember a couple weeks ago, i was like...I sort of miss my cheer friends so I went on facebook and stuff and I just wanted to check my Mustang Cheerleading group that I'm in...but when I looked for it, I WASN"T PART OF THE GROUP ANYMORE!!! LOL i was like dannggg!! :( pretty sad!! and i miss cheering sometimes!!!! lOL sometimes, i feel like it's really weird that I now have so much time!! but it's good! cos i actually get so bored sometimes, that I actually do work and stuff!! so that's a start i think! haah anyways, i had way more to say, but i forgot it all cos yeah! oh well!!!
Jireh!
I remember a couple weeks ago, i was like...I sort of miss my cheer friends so I went on facebook and stuff and I just wanted to check my Mustang Cheerleading group that I'm in...but when I looked for it, I WASN"T PART OF THE GROUP ANYMORE!!! LOL i was like dannggg!! :( pretty sad!! and i miss cheering sometimes!!!! lOL sometimes, i feel like it's really weird that I now have so much time!! but it's good! cos i actually get so bored sometimes, that I actually do work and stuff!! so that's a start i think! haah anyways, i had way more to say, but i forgot it all cos yeah! oh well!!!
Jireh!
Thursday, January 24, 2013
you are loved
so i was just thinking about Jesus LOLOL and how he love us!
it's just so amazing!!! and I actually find it amazing how he loves us even though sometimes, we do not reciprocate!!! and the thing is, I don't deserve ANY of His love!! legit...nothing! what do I deserve? LOL romans 6:23!!! but because of Jesus, and His righteousness imputed on me, I can have life! and even with this new life, sometiems i catch myself running from Him! not right now, but sometimes I see it! and honestly, i dont really know how to describe it! but God's pursuit of me is SO encouraging to me! and His pursuit for those that don't know Him yet!! although they deny God...although their hearts are hardened, God still pursues and loves!
God I ask you to teach me how to love like you love! and to be able to love my future wife like you love me! God i ask you to help me to continue pursuing her everyday even after marriage...just how you pursue me everyday! haha i feel like i blogged about this a little while ago, but it really clicked this time! and God used it to encourage me now!!! haha I still need to meditate on it more!! i feel like the Spirit wants to tell me more! :) i'm excited for tonight!! :) kkk so here are two songs for you!! one more relavant to this topic than the other! LOOL but i love BOTH of these songs!!!
Hope you're all doing well! :)
it's just so amazing!!! and I actually find it amazing how he loves us even though sometimes, we do not reciprocate!!! and the thing is, I don't deserve ANY of His love!! legit...nothing! what do I deserve? LOL romans 6:23!!! but because of Jesus, and His righteousness imputed on me, I can have life! and even with this new life, sometiems i catch myself running from Him! not right now, but sometimes I see it! and honestly, i dont really know how to describe it! but God's pursuit of me is SO encouraging to me! and His pursuit for those that don't know Him yet!! although they deny God...although their hearts are hardened, God still pursues and loves!
God I ask you to teach me how to love like you love! and to be able to love my future wife like you love me! God i ask you to help me to continue pursuing her everyday even after marriage...just how you pursue me everyday! haha i feel like i blogged about this a little while ago, but it really clicked this time! and God used it to encourage me now!!! haha I still need to meditate on it more!! i feel like the Spirit wants to tell me more! :) i'm excited for tonight!! :) kkk so here are two songs for you!! one more relavant to this topic than the other! LOOL but i love BOTH of these songs!!!
How He Loves
Don't give up! (you are loved)
Hope you're all doing well! :)
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
While I'm waiting!
So...like i said...God is amazing!! today, i was praying to Him then I took a nap LOL! then i woke up...slowly! in the mean time, i guess my computer was playing random worship songs from Songza! and "While I'm Waiting" came on...and i'm like...WOW! thanks God! hahaa thanks for helping me know what i need to do!!! cos.. i guess its hard sometimes!! but yeah! during this time of trial, i need to be steadfast! and wait on God! and like while i'm waiting, I'll worship Him and serve Him!!! not just wiggle my fingers and chill! I WILL SERVE YOU AND WORSHIP YOU ALONE!! mmmm
man it was encouraging!
I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait
I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord
this is so powerful!!!
anyways, Smile! :)
man it was encouraging!
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait
I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord
this is so powerful!!!
anyways, Smile! :)
Monday, January 21, 2013
Jan 20
So yesterday was such a really great day!! overall, i guess this weekend was pretty intense/great! HAHA!
Background story: God convicted me of something last week...and around thursday or friday night I'm like..."God, thankyou for giving me your discernment/wisdom. I know what you want me to do so I will not doubt you! I am ready for any trials you want to give me!" LOL probably should have stopped before the last sentence, LOL, but i have no regrets! Saturday, low and behold, God's like..."Jireh, I'm going to test you" and i'm like dannnnnngggg!!! and i guess saturday was sort of not that happy, but at the same time, happy! I didn't really get much work done that day, but I spent all day with God and it was good! I had a lot to pray and think about...so i really needed that day! I was walking back home from the rec center and I was like.. GOD, you I need a sport where I can pray for to You! lol and He showed me a spot!! AHHA so jokes!! anyways so after i finished praying, I sat up and was ready to read my bible when i saw 2 crazy asian girls! lol i was like.. those ppl are weird but when they got closer, they were my friends! AHHHA so jokess!! anyways, here's a pic of my prayer spot!! (i would legit just lie down/sit and pray!)
but yeah! i guess even though I had a lot of time to pray and talk to God, I was sort of.. :/ sad? LLOL i guess!! just not feeling THAT good i guess! lol cos i really was not expecting God to test me that soon! haha but it's goood!! logically, in my mind, I'm glad whatever happened happened, but honestly, I preferred to have held off on this if I could have! but then, like i said, in the end, i guess i'm glad it all happened! Anyways, the background was to tell you that currently, as of saturday, I'm being tested/under trial and it's difficult!! but i need to persist because I know what I am doing is for God's glory and I know that He has an ultimate plan that will in the end, glorify Him! but yeah! I was still sort of emotional! haha kkk
Sunday: I guess I woke up the next morning feeling alright... I was like "I guess I'm ready and I'll just have to continue praying and persisting for a while/until the time is over...which will probably be a while...but that's okay...because i have the hope that God will glorify himself through this and that I will get to know him a lot better through this as well" anyways, so i go into worship and all I can say is that it was SOOO EMOTIONAL for me! I really felt God moving in me and saying "Jireh, I'm here for you! I love you...I know these times will be hard for you, but continue doing what you are doing and remember your faith and remember that I love you more than anything!...I care for you!" Essentially what physically happened was during worship, they played the 3 songs that impacted me so much last semester...."lay me down", "forever reign" and "all i have is christ"...and what was crazy was the fact that they were played consecutively!!! like... those 3 in a row! they weren't even split or anything! and its not like it was 3/5 of the songs that impacted me a lot last semester...it was 3/3!!! ora ctually 3/2 LOL cos the first 2 impacted me the most...but the last one impacted me a lot too!! and it was just soo moving!! I guess during the song "lay me down", i was sort of tearing up becaseu I felt like God was talking to me and confirming me that what I am doing is good! cos I'm laying down my life! through this trial, I'm literally leaving everything to God's hands because there is NOTHING I can do about anything that happens during this time...all I can do is have faith and give everything to God....so that was already pretty moving! near the end of the song, i was tearing up..but not crying! then..."forever reign" started playing....DANG! LOL before i even started singing, streams of tears started to come out of my eyes! I was like.. what are the chances?! lol God is so amazing!!! and then there was a pause in the music where this woman just shared and at that time, i stopped crying! and then they continued the song and I was emotional, but my crying ceased! :) and i'm like.. okay that was embarrassing, but it's okay! and then "all i have is Christ" started and i'm like.. OHH MYY!! then i started crying again!! u know how in dramas the tear just falls from the eyes and rolls down your face? .. thats def what happened to me! not cos i was sad, but sooo moved my the Spirit! and so touched!! and God was reminding me that All i have is Christ! and that He alone is sufficient for me!!! I dont need anything else! and at the time, even now, it's still so touching! becasue i'm letting go of my pride and laying things down to God and saying.. "God, do what you want...my GOAL and HOPE is to GLORIFY YOU ALONE! not me! but you only! All i want and all i need is you! I don't need anything of this world stuff!...only you! and yea so i was crying throughout most of that song! then a short movie thing played! and it was EPIC!!!! it showed me the wonderfulness and awesomeness of God...and just how Boss He is!!!! like.. he created EVERYTHING!...like everything! yet, He cares enough about me to actually comfort me!! and he knew exactly how to do it! like it was soo real to me because he JUST comforted me 2 mins ago! right then and there! and i'm like..WOOOOW... God, you are so awesome!
Anyways, later on that day...I was napping and I guess God wanted to wake me up, and he literally showed me "Waken, Gorgeous" LOLOL He thinks i'm beautiful! .. that is amazing tooo!!! haha hmm and then after that.. randomly, my mom calls me! LOl and she asks me how she can pray for me!! Honestly, after yesterday, i am fully convinced that the convictions I've had last week were God-breathed and Spirit-led! Saturday was the beginning of my trial, and I told God what I was going to do and on sunday, he was like "Jireh, I'm here to encourage you!...although there may be no earthly thing that can encourage you at the moment, and although things from the view of the earth seems discouraging, I am encouraging you with my Spirit!" and honestly, it was crazy!!!! :):) I don't think God has ever felt that real to me before!! but yeah! I thank God so much for speaking to me! and comforting me! I know this time ahead I have is tough! but i have the hope of glorifying God and that is what is keeping me going!
mmm yeah i think thats it for now!
here are the songs! if you want to listen to them! :)
Background story: God convicted me of something last week...and around thursday or friday night I'm like..."God, thankyou for giving me your discernment/wisdom. I know what you want me to do so I will not doubt you! I am ready for any trials you want to give me!" LOL probably should have stopped before the last sentence, LOL, but i have no regrets! Saturday, low and behold, God's like..."Jireh, I'm going to test you" and i'm like dannnnnngggg!!! and i guess saturday was sort of not that happy, but at the same time, happy! I didn't really get much work done that day, but I spent all day with God and it was good! I had a lot to pray and think about...so i really needed that day! I was walking back home from the rec center and I was like.. GOD, you I need a sport where I can pray for to You! lol and He showed me a spot!! AHHA so jokes!! anyways so after i finished praying, I sat up and was ready to read my bible when i saw 2 crazy asian girls! lol i was like.. those ppl are weird but when they got closer, they were my friends! AHHHA so jokess!! anyways, here's a pic of my prayer spot!! (i would legit just lie down/sit and pray!)
but yeah! i guess even though I had a lot of time to pray and talk to God, I was sort of.. :/ sad? LLOL i guess!! just not feeling THAT good i guess! lol cos i really was not expecting God to test me that soon! haha but it's goood!! logically, in my mind, I'm glad whatever happened happened, but honestly, I preferred to have held off on this if I could have! but then, like i said, in the end, i guess i'm glad it all happened! Anyways, the background was to tell you that currently, as of saturday, I'm being tested/under trial and it's difficult!! but i need to persist because I know what I am doing is for God's glory and I know that He has an ultimate plan that will in the end, glorify Him! but yeah! I was still sort of emotional! haha kkk
Sunday: I guess I woke up the next morning feeling alright... I was like "I guess I'm ready and I'll just have to continue praying and persisting for a while/until the time is over...which will probably be a while...but that's okay...because i have the hope that God will glorify himself through this and that I will get to know him a lot better through this as well" anyways, so i go into worship and all I can say is that it was SOOO EMOTIONAL for me! I really felt God moving in me and saying "Jireh, I'm here for you! I love you...I know these times will be hard for you, but continue doing what you are doing and remember your faith and remember that I love you more than anything!...I care for you!" Essentially what physically happened was during worship, they played the 3 songs that impacted me so much last semester...."lay me down", "forever reign" and "all i have is christ"...and what was crazy was the fact that they were played consecutively!!! like... those 3 in a row! they weren't even split or anything! and its not like it was 3/5 of the songs that impacted me a lot last semester...it was 3/3!!! ora ctually 3/2 LOL cos the first 2 impacted me the most...but the last one impacted me a lot too!! and it was just soo moving!! I guess during the song "lay me down", i was sort of tearing up becaseu I felt like God was talking to me and confirming me that what I am doing is good! cos I'm laying down my life! through this trial, I'm literally leaving everything to God's hands because there is NOTHING I can do about anything that happens during this time...all I can do is have faith and give everything to God....so that was already pretty moving! near the end of the song, i was tearing up..but not crying! then..."forever reign" started playing....DANG! LOL before i even started singing, streams of tears started to come out of my eyes! I was like.. what are the chances?! lol God is so amazing!!! and then there was a pause in the music where this woman just shared and at that time, i stopped crying! and then they continued the song and I was emotional, but my crying ceased! :) and i'm like.. okay that was embarrassing, but it's okay! and then "all i have is Christ" started and i'm like.. OHH MYY!! then i started crying again!! u know how in dramas the tear just falls from the eyes and rolls down your face? .. thats def what happened to me! not cos i was sad, but sooo moved my the Spirit! and so touched!! and God was reminding me that All i have is Christ! and that He alone is sufficient for me!!! I dont need anything else! and at the time, even now, it's still so touching! becasue i'm letting go of my pride and laying things down to God and saying.. "God, do what you want...my GOAL and HOPE is to GLORIFY YOU ALONE! not me! but you only! All i want and all i need is you! I don't need anything of this world stuff!...only you! and yea so i was crying throughout most of that song! then a short movie thing played! and it was EPIC!!!! it showed me the wonderfulness and awesomeness of God...and just how Boss He is!!!! like.. he created EVERYTHING!...like everything! yet, He cares enough about me to actually comfort me!! and he knew exactly how to do it! like it was soo real to me because he JUST comforted me 2 mins ago! right then and there! and i'm like..WOOOOW... God, you are so awesome!
Anyways, later on that day...I was napping and I guess God wanted to wake me up, and he literally showed me "Waken, Gorgeous" LOLOL He thinks i'm beautiful! .. that is amazing tooo!!! haha hmm and then after that.. randomly, my mom calls me! LOl and she asks me how she can pray for me!! Honestly, after yesterday, i am fully convinced that the convictions I've had last week were God-breathed and Spirit-led! Saturday was the beginning of my trial, and I told God what I was going to do and on sunday, he was like "Jireh, I'm here to encourage you!...although there may be no earthly thing that can encourage you at the moment, and although things from the view of the earth seems discouraging, I am encouraging you with my Spirit!" and honestly, it was crazy!!!! :):) I don't think God has ever felt that real to me before!! but yeah! I thank God so much for speaking to me! and comforting me! I know this time ahead I have is tough! but i have the hope of glorifying God and that is what is keeping me going!
mmm yeah i think thats it for now!
here are the songs! if you want to listen to them! :)
Lay me down
Forever Reign
All I have is Christ
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
continuation from last post
so today, woow! God is amazing! that is all I can say! ahaha today, I spent a good 2 hours chilling with God today! and He has showed me so much! not going to lie, it was not easy!... or at least easy to start it! but boy was it worth it! Honestly, until the time I spent with God today, I was supperrr unproductive!!! I literally did nothing ALL day!...anyways, I have been really noticing myself drift further and further from God and today i was like...no...this is too much! "Lord, I need you" haha! and it's so true! cannot live without him! anyways! after those 2 hours of just praying, thinking, studying John 15 and stuff God showed me a lot of things! oh lol and i was listening to the song "your love never fails"... and i JUST noticed the first lines LOL like the very first lines of the song!
"Nothing can separate
Even if I ran away
Your love never fails"
And i'm like...wow! I can totally relate to this! haha... even when I run away... nothing can separate me from Your love!!!...so true! LOL even when i run away! lol i just find that pretty funny!/powerful! cos running away is a pretty intentional thing! lol and the fact that even when I try to run away from God, He will continue to pursue me! constantly, firmly yet gently! He chooses me! I don't have a choice in the matter, it is His will... not mine! And honestly, THANK GOD HE CHOSE ME! thank God He pursues me! Thank God that I am a branch that bears fruit only through of Jesus (the vine)!...and that I am not withered up and thrown into a fire! God is so gracious and amazing! Thank God that nothing can separate me from his love...even when I'm intentionally running away from Him!
Romans 8:38-39
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Smile! :)
"Nothing can separate
Even if I ran away
Your love never fails"
And i'm like...wow! I can totally relate to this! haha... even when I run away... nothing can separate me from Your love!!!...so true! LOL even when i run away! lol i just find that pretty funny!/powerful! cos running away is a pretty intentional thing! lol and the fact that even when I try to run away from God, He will continue to pursue me! constantly, firmly yet gently! He chooses me! I don't have a choice in the matter, it is His will... not mine! And honestly, THANK GOD HE CHOSE ME! thank God He pursues me! Thank God that I am a branch that bears fruit only through of Jesus (the vine)!...and that I am not withered up and thrown into a fire! God is so gracious and amazing! Thank God that nothing can separate me from his love...even when I'm intentionally running away from Him!
Romans 8:38-39
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Smile! :)
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