You know you're FAT when...

So... I was contemplating whether to blog this or not after reading one of my friends blog today.. LOL but w/e! haha!  This doesn't really go against what she was saying! LOL

Soo I went home over reading week and my mom's like..
 "Jireh! you look bigger!"
and I'm like.. "i know eh! too much muscles! LOL (i was joking btw)"
and she's like.. "OH NO! how heavy are you?!?"
im like... "well between 200-210.. well you know it fluctu..."
"OH MY! that is ALL FAT!"
and while we are driving by some random statue thing.. she sees one of those really big chinese lion things and starts laughing hysterically!
she's like, "hahaha your legs are haha as fat as that statues legs! ahahah" and she continues laughing for 5 mins! LOL
You know you're fat when your MOM thinks you're fat! HAHA!
Now, my mom wasn't making fun of me.. well she was LOL but she knew I didn't care about that kind of stuff cos yeah.. i just don't care! LOL  I guess she knew that it would encourage me to work out more! haah
She told me that I better start running at least 3 times a week! ahah which i will try to start doing! ahah so i can trim down! :)  Not because I'm self conscience about my fat... but more because I want to be healthy and not just be a slob that doesn't care about his body! Also, I plan on running a full marathon in October.. so I should start getting back into shape again! haha so i can actually complete it with a good time! :)

Smile and be happy !:D

Far Beyond

I hear it in a love song or see it on a movie screen
The kind of perfect love story
That i have always dreamed
Would somehow come into my life
And yet it seems so out of reach
It’s all i think about sometimes
Will i ever find a love that’s meant to be?
Maybe these thoughts seem foolish
To a holy God who made the sea and land
But you were the one who created
Love between a woman and a man
And deep inside i hear you say
You see all my hopes and fears
And if i give to you the pen of my life
You’ll write a tale that all heaven can cheer

Far beyond my deepest heart’s desire
Far beyond what i could ever dream
Far beyond my fairy tale imaginations
Is your perfect plan for me
There’s no limit to romance in all its beauty
When the author of love shapes my destiny
Far beyond the most that i could long for
I will find the dreams you have dreamed for me

I could search forever
I could look for true love everywhere
If all my dreams were answered
They still could not compare
To the beauty of your ways
And all your plans for my life
‘cause you’ve been scripting out a story for me
Before the very foundations of time


- Eric and Leslie Ludy

I trust You

Sometimes, when I'm thinking about my dream girl, I have to learn to put my trust in God and not in myself!  AHAH to be honest, I know .. for a FACT that I am not ready for a dating relationship right now, yet sometimes I want it! ahah its kinda jokes! but not! haha I think i need to wait till I'm older... LOL i rmb in highschool when I was like.. "i'll probalby start dating in university!" but NO! haha  Definitely not ready for it! haha I need to get my life straightened out first for suree!! maybe even like.. 3 years from now i still won't be ready.. but hopefully not!  I need to start caring about life in general first and stuff!.. I'm definitely starting to care more now.. because I realized that my life is important and I can't just throw it down the drain and do bad in university!  I find it hard to concentrate and work hard, but I suppose that those skills don't really come overnight!  I'm working on it!

There's so much stuff in my head that I'm thinking about (dream girl related stuff), but i can't get it out on paper, let alone words! haha It's hard because my thoughts are going everywhere! its like...not a flower.. its complicated and... like noodles or soemthing.. LOL just messed up and not organized in any form but.. I know what I'm thinking about! HAHA its weird! like.. I have things in my head but i can't get it out!

Anyways, something I'm working on is feeling content being single! ahah dont get me wrong! Singleness is AWESOME! haah its like... fun! haha no need to waste money, be creative or w/e haah even though doing that stuff can be fun! but sometimes i'm not always content.  I want to be able to say to God that He is sufficient for me!  He's all I need!  and if I think about it, LOL ITS TRUE! ahah His love is sooo much more than all the girls in the world's love combined is!  LOL He IS love! HAHA so He is better!  I don't know how to describe this, but I can't wait till the day where I am truly content being single... not worrying about girls, just knowing that God will Provide! AHAH JOKES because my name means God Provides! LOL (Jehovah Jireh) 

LOL i feel better already! LOl i think! HAHA Starting to feel happy that He loves me/us/everybody! LOL ohh LOL that kind of implied that I wasnt feeling happy before.. LOL just clarification, I was happy.. just happy with a heartache! LOL if that even makes sense.. or maybe I wasn't happy! LOL iunno! AHHA i dont rmb! LOL

I have a tendency on forgetting things.. i have bad short term memory nowadays! ahah so, if you wanna share a secret, TELL ME! :D HAHA cos i'll just forget it nd never tell anyone! LOL JKJK I'll rmb it! but i'll like.. put it away in my memory so taht i won't rmb it unless you want me to! LOL

Smile and be Happy! :D

iunno anymore!

Sometimes I feel like getting over this Granola Barre addiction is pointless!  Sometimes, even though it's bad for my heart, I really want to eat them and I feel like I can't get rid of this addiction! LOL Almost like... i chose to be addicted to Granola Barres  a long time ago.. and i just LOL can't stop! LOL  I'm pretty sure you can choose to get addicted to something.. which is bad.. because once you get addicted, you cant choose to be unaddicted and thats fail..

ANYWAYS, I JUST HEARD COYOTES IN MY BACKYARD! :D HAAH cool stuff eh? lol

LOL today got me thinking about my addiction because it's something that bothers me but not...maybe, if i think about it less it'll be okay? lOL ahah nope! LOl because it's inevitable that i'll bump into something that will make me think about it! LOL... like.. iunno.... flowers or something....I love Granola Barres! LOL but i need to stop wanting to be addicted to it! LOL anyways.. this is starting to get into bad territory i guess... but sometimes i feel taht Granola Barres can be good for you! like.. there are those "good for the heart" ones right? lol iunno.. right now i'm just feeling like i don't want to be Granola Barre free anymore.. LOL i dont know! HHAAHA i need to think about this more! AHHA

NICE! :D

So today was soo nicce! :D It was pretty much whatever I wanted and more!  i got together with probably my favourite group of friends and we caught up and just really shared a lot and stuff!  Today turned out to be better than i had hoped for! :D haha Missed ppl when they left, but its still cool! :D we all shared about our spiritual lives and about what God is doing in our lives and stuff and it was really cool how we all korean prayed for everyone!.. tbh, i've never done that kind of sharing before, but, no lies! i like it! lol  I really love every single one of my grade church friends! haha i sometimes regret not getting to know them better in Highschool! haah but yeah!

Anyways, right now, im in my happy bliss! AHAH its like.. when im not like ADHD but im happy still! like...i dont know what its called its like.. chilled happy! ahah or.. think of some person on a beach, chilling on a hammock... thinking about flowers....with no worries and happy!  That's how I feel right now!  Happy and calm! :) its nice!

ANYWAYS, for those you MISSED out DINNER, you MISSED AWESOMENESS! haha! we had way too many left overs! LOL but yeah! w/e! its cool i guess!  I know you guys had other things that are just as important to do! So I really hope you guys had fun doing that stuff!
To everyone who came out, thanks so much for coming out today! I really had lots of fun and learned stuff from every one of you!

This is nice!

I like today! I woke up and just kind of chilled!  Right now, I'm sitting in my living room, hearing construction going on in the background behind me.  For some reason, hearing the beeping sounds of those construction vehicles when they go in reverse is relaxing!  Same with listening to the sound of cars speeding across my house (because I live on a street where 80km/h is the speed limit and everyone knows that 80km/h = 90-100km/h).  Anyways, today is such a nice day! :)  The sun is shining, the sky is blue, everything just seems chill and it's nice! haha  I'm gonna go downtown in a few mins to do some productive studying! so I can increase my marks! HAHA
Anyways, I'm excited for tomorrow!  I get to hang out with some of my fave ppl! (my church friends) haha they are all so nice and i've known them all for a while now (or at least... known of them, cos I used to be too shy to talk to them i think...or not.. i don't rmb).  Anyways, I'm hoping tmr will be a  good day as well! :D
Seriously, I feel like I could just chill here for another 6 hours just enjoying the...chillness HAHA.. I couldnt think of another word to say! but yeah!  I like this!  Relaxed feeling... not that i'm not relaxed usually.. i guess today I just spent the time savouring (is that even the right word to use? LOL) the moment!

I think, right now would be a good time to close my eyes and start dreaming.. LOL but i'm not going to do that because I'm too awake right now! HAHA and I want to do something more productive!

All I'm missing right now is my dream girl!  haha wish you were here chilling with me! :D

SMILE and be happy! :D

I love girls

Well, I also love guys in the same way too! well... at least in the same way as i love most girls.. cos i only love one girl a different way! ahah i think Something I'm working on, is trying to AGAPE love EVERYONE!... which is pretty much impossible... but its something I really wanna do! just have love for ppl I don't even know! sooo a secular definition for this is "selfless love of one person for another without sexual implications".. COOL ehh? see i told you it's possible for me to love guys and girls! but yeah! its something i want to have! It's easier to Agape love someone who is a friend.. cos you actually know them! haha but to agape love everyone (or most ppl at least) is something i feel like i need to work on! LOL!


Anyways, back to my dream girl...REAL dream girl...I haven't really met her yet.. but i know she's gonna be pretty cool!.. well.. more on the AWESOME side... or like.> BOTH  cool AND awesome! ahha but yeah! haha I already love her! whoever she is!
ohh yeah! something one of my friends brought up and i want to blog about is this: "whats the difference between a really good friend/best friend and your girlfriend or wife (or spouse if you're a girl! LOL)?" and I thought about it! . LOL i found that as I thought more about it.. less ideas came to my head! LOl so it was kind of a waste of my time because my ideas/thoughts haven't really changed much since i was asked this question..
answer is.. i'd want to marry my girlfriend.. nd i wouldnt wanna marry someone who is just a friend.. LOL i guess it can/should be as simple as that! LOL like.. if you list a lot of characteristics (inner stuff) about your girlfriend or wife.. OBVIOUSLY it will be similar to stuff ur best friend has! cos theoretically I think your girlfriend/wife should become your best friend! LOL no lies! HAHA I can list off a bunch of characteristics that i look for in girls and stuff (girls i think MIGHT be my dream girl), and you could say they all match characteristics of a best friend! nd thats good! cos thats what its supposed to be like  HAHAw/e! i think i said that too many times already! haha
my dream girl will be cool! :) trust guys! i'll invite u all to my wedding! (not banquet cos im not super rich) but yeah when i get married! LOL you'll all think she's cool! ahah


Something I have to do right now is just WAIT! HAAH cos when i meet her i'll know and when she meets me, she'll know! :)  LOL its POSSIBLE i know her now (probalby not likely) but if i know her now, .. LOL then the future us will know when the time is right! LOL 
YES ppl! i believe that there is that one person just for you! nd if you don't... you should cos i believe it! LOLOL JKJK dumb reason! but yeah! :D


Sorry if my blogs are getting progressively more and more serious! LOL

School... LOL

So.. I probably should have blogged about this before.. but yeah, i find that i need a couple days to really grasp what just happened before it really hits me! for example, when I had to leave my best friend because she had to go back home... which was far away...I was sad at that moment... but not really... but i got SUPER sad a couple days later when it actually hit me!  or when yeah.. other sad stuff i'm not going to share about on this blog! LOL

So, a couple days ago I got my calculus midterm mark back and im like.. wow.. that's pretty terrible... and when i say terrible, I don't mean Asian fail (which is below 90 for those who don't know what an asian fail is)  I mean legit bad!  Anyways, to be honest, I feel like I needed this!  It was like a slap in the face!  no lies!  Up till now, at least for most of 2nd semester, I've just been really... complacent with life and everything!  Like I believe it is good to be chills sometimes.. but def not ALL the time!  Also, my walk with God has been pretty bad and everything just wasn't.. good I guess.  I feel like God used this exam to tell me "yo Jireh!  wake up man! LOL stop wasting your life away and do what I have planned for you!" and it really hit me!  I look back and see how lazy I was and just how complacent and not caring about anything I was and it bothered me!  I don't like this!  LOL cos i need to be a MAN! AHAH  Anyways, now I want to do well.. like I actually want to do well!  I really don't care if I get into med school or not or w/e... tbh. I dont even know if that's what's for me! Luckily this exam was just a midterm, so it didn't totally screw my chances for med school!  As long as I start working hard NOW, I can achieve higher marks for sure!

Anyways, I'm actually really happy I got this wake up call! I feel like my life was all scrambled up and now, God helped me put it back together by breaking me!  LOL its like banana grams LOL when you get stuck, sometimes you ahve to redo the entire thing to finish! and thats def what i needed! :D

anyways! LOL sorry for the somewhat serious post LOL there's going to be serious posts and not so serious posts on this blog... so yeah! :D

SMILE and be happy! :D

My nose is POWERFUL!

So.. im not that sick anymore.. but for this past week i was SOO SICK!.. well.. not that sick... but.. since i havent been sick in a long time, it just felt really terrible cos yeah.. im not used to it! LOL
for those who wanted to know what i had.. it was probalby just a common cold.. LOL!
Fever, sore through, running nose... (super dry lips that are hurting right now) and yeah! LOL

ANYWAYS...
so like yesterday, my nose was stuffed with boooogers nd stuff so i needed to blow it out.. LOl so i'm at "home" and I grab some toilet paper (cos im cheap and don't buy kleenex when toilet paper does the same thing...) fold it bunch of times and blow my nose! LOL and for somet reason. I blew like.. SUPER loud! ... LOL like.. a trumpet or something! HAHA and i wa slike.. wth is in my hand?! lol and why does it feel goopy?! lol so i look at it and my boogers are there.. dn im liek... WHAT?! how did taht happend? LLOL!.. so. yeah.. i blew a clean hole right through 4 layers of toilet paper!! LOL so jokkes! LOL no worries ppl! i washed my hand afterwards! LOL but yeah! i never knew i could blow that hard! LOL no lies!

SMILE! and be happy!

LOL almost got hit by a car! LOL

LOL so, i kind of feel bad because i almost got hit by a car a couple days ago! LOL i forgot i had a blog at the time... so i didn't blog about it !LOLOL! anyways... so i was walking across a street walk even though it was flashing the stop sign (which isn't ILLEGAL) and a blue car almost hits me! like.. i was looking at it.. nd i wasnt sure if it was going to slow down or not.. nd usually they do.. so i didn't really care! AHHA but yeah at teh last moment, it didn't slow down.. so i kind of .. jumped out of the way! LOL and the car missed me by like... 1cm literally! LOL but seriously, at that moment i was soooo scarreeedd! LOL basically, before i almost hit the car, the girl's face (the driver) was totally scared! i think she screamed or soemthing! im not sure.. but at that moment she was def more scared than I was.. which then made me scared and made me jump out of the way! LOl tbh, it wasn't the fear of death taht scared me, but the fear of ruining someone else's life! LOL like.. what if she hit me?... worst thing is, I die and she feels really guilty for teh rest of her life because she killed a nice guy (yeah me!) and she could get charged with manslaughter! .. oh man! i'd feel so bad! i guess the best thing that could happen is that, i'd get a minor injury and not report it.. but then still, she'd still be pretty traumatized because she hit a human! LOL  Anyways, i'm happy I didn't get hit!  I hope that girl is okay and not angry at me!... I apologized right when she missed me! but i don't think she heard it cos her window was closed... LOL oh well! I hope everythign is cool! :)

SMILE and be happy!

regarding the previous post (mens 3 greatest wishes)

Now that i think about it...I really do want the 3rd wish! :D The third greatest wish for men is that they have as many women their wife thinks they have!

I was sleeping in bed last night thinking about that... nd im like.. what the!! ahha i want my wife to think that she's the only one for me and that she is special to me and that there is no other girls/women for me!  So i really hope that in her heart, she knows that!  This way, my wife will think I only have one girl! and thats her! :D haha and i want that! :D

SMILE! and be happy!!

OLD MEN! (men's 3 greatest wishes)

You know what I want to be like? I wanna be like an old man! HAHA seriously! if you think you have no shame/awkwardness/whatever, you should compare yourself with old ppl! Old men seriously have the most self confidence ever! or they just dont think things are awkward or w/e! Like... i rmb when some old guy farted! nd this was no ordinary fart.. it was like... A FART! u know what i mean! anyways LOL i like almost laughed nd he just looked at me as if it were nobodies business! LOL so jokes! HAHA like.. i dont know how u can fart (loudly at least) nd have no reaction to it! LOL like. for me.. i would feel either embarrassed (if there are a lot of girls (ones i dont know very well) around me) or i would think it's really funny (cos that would be when i make my friends around me suffer! LOL)

ANYWAYS, so today, i was on the bus after grocery shopping nd some 79 year old man got on the bus and just started talking very loudly to the bus driver:
"You know, my birthday is on July 23rd! and I'll be 80 years young!  I expect you to give me a birthday present! because I was born on July 23rd...at 5:30am! ... Sometimes I wish my mom didn't do that to me! cos now i wake up at 5:30am every day!"
bus driver: "haha no problem! will do!"
Old man: " you know what Men's 3 greatest wishes are?"
Bus driver: "no...lol"
Old man: "The first one is that they would be as handsome as their mom thinks they are.(right now, there's this pretty girl in front of me chuckling to herself)  The second is that they are as rich as their children think they are and the last one is that they have as many women as their wife thinks they have! (at this point, the girl that was laughing stopped laughing LOL)"

HAHA soo I think that was really quite funny! no lies! cept for the last part! because, i only really want one girl! and that is my dream girl obviously! haha! but seriously, i still find the whole thing funny! AHAH it really made me happy/smile/laugh! HAHA

Smile and be happy! :D

OH NO!

LOL! just having a pretty big craving for a granola barre right now!! LOL
uh oh what should i do?
well.. im writing this blog to get my mind out of that crunchy/chewy delight!...
ohh mann... it came in my head again! at least i havent yet gone out to eat a granola barre! haha this time.. at least it wasnt in my dreams! i just thought about it i guess! :( too bad for me! lOL I think its cos the other day, i saw a firend of mine find a food that he loves which is healthy for him! LOL thats like.. me loving granola barres with it have good health benefits nd it being good for my heart (which it's not) so yeah! LOL I'm faill! lol

OH MANNN!!! i think salad is goood... or steak? steak is good! well... at least better than granola barres i guess! BUT yeah.. they just dont taste the same.. or give me the same feeling! HAHA i think they should invent nicotine patches for granola barres! so that when i get a craving I can just slip one on and not worry about my addiction with granola barres! LOL
Oh well... maybe if I talk about it with someone.. it will help.. LOL iunno! haah

I hope you all dont have this problem! haha cos it's not a good one! LOL no lies!
BTW! if anyone has suggestions on getting over addictions like.. granola barres or w/e you struggle with... like.. i guess a more common one is smoking.. LOL.. pleaasee do help nd give me suggestions! :) i'll try to take them! LOL

SMILE and be happy everyone! :D

Snow day? :(

MAN! :( today was so disappointing! HAHA weather reporters were like.. "Theres a huge snow storm coming!!!" haah an dyeah! i woke up today and saw like.. 4 inches of snow... LOL! so jokes because that is so little! :( so yeah, school wasn't cancelled! you need like at least 2 feet of snow for you to cancel school! hah like last year! Whatever! :D it's good I guess! haah because, if you think about it, snowdays aren't even taht good! because your prof still expects you to learn what you were supposed to have learned in class that day.. soo.. essentially, its like skipping class.. SOOO THEORETICALLY, you could just take a snow day EVERYDAY! :D ahah or whenever you want at least! LOL at least now I'm learning in class... kind of..
right now, im in physics with one of the most boring profs in the world who is impossible to understand.. LOL! i have no idea what he's even talking about right now... seriously.. all i've got from his lectures is that he's come back from the future, or that he is a jedi, but just doesn't want to show us his powers! LOL

Anyways, I'm happy! cos at least im not burning money! LOL getting my money's worth for university! :) LOL so funny! cos right now, there like.. 100 ppl in the class of over 600.. LOL!

SMILE! :D