School... LOL

So.. I probably should have blogged about this before.. but yeah, i find that i need a couple days to really grasp what just happened before it really hits me! for example, when I had to leave my best friend because she had to go back home... which was far away...I was sad at that moment... but not really... but i got SUPER sad a couple days later when it actually hit me!  or when yeah.. other sad stuff i'm not going to share about on this blog! LOL

So, a couple days ago I got my calculus midterm mark back and im like.. wow.. that's pretty terrible... and when i say terrible, I don't mean Asian fail (which is below 90 for those who don't know what an asian fail is)  I mean legit bad!  Anyways, to be honest, I feel like I needed this!  It was like a slap in the face!  no lies!  Up till now, at least for most of 2nd semester, I've just been really... complacent with life and everything!  Like I believe it is good to be chills sometimes.. but def not ALL the time!  Also, my walk with God has been pretty bad and everything just wasn't.. good I guess.  I feel like God used this exam to tell me "yo Jireh!  wake up man! LOL stop wasting your life away and do what I have planned for you!" and it really hit me!  I look back and see how lazy I was and just how complacent and not caring about anything I was and it bothered me!  I don't like this!  LOL cos i need to be a MAN! AHAH  Anyways, now I want to do well.. like I actually want to do well!  I really don't care if I get into med school or not or w/e... tbh. I dont even know if that's what's for me! Luckily this exam was just a midterm, so it didn't totally screw my chances for med school!  As long as I start working hard NOW, I can achieve higher marks for sure!

Anyways, I'm actually really happy I got this wake up call! I feel like my life was all scrambled up and now, God helped me put it back together by breaking me!  LOL its like banana grams LOL when you get stuck, sometimes you ahve to redo the entire thing to finish! and thats def what i needed! :D

anyways! LOL sorry for the somewhat serious post LOL there's going to be serious posts and not so serious posts on this blog... so yeah! :D

SMILE and be happy! :D