I trust You

Sometimes, when I'm thinking about my dream girl, I have to learn to put my trust in God and not in myself!  AHAH to be honest, I know .. for a FACT that I am not ready for a dating relationship right now, yet sometimes I want it! ahah its kinda jokes! but not! haha I think i need to wait till I'm older... LOL i rmb in highschool when I was like.. "i'll probalby start dating in university!" but NO! haha  Definitely not ready for it! haha I need to get my life straightened out first for suree!! maybe even like.. 3 years from now i still won't be ready.. but hopefully not!  I need to start caring about life in general first and stuff!.. I'm definitely starting to care more now.. because I realized that my life is important and I can't just throw it down the drain and do bad in university!  I find it hard to concentrate and work hard, but I suppose that those skills don't really come overnight!  I'm working on it!

There's so much stuff in my head that I'm thinking about (dream girl related stuff), but i can't get it out on paper, let alone words! haha It's hard because my thoughts are going everywhere! its like...not a flower.. its complicated and... like noodles or soemthing.. LOL just messed up and not organized in any form but.. I know what I'm thinking about! HAHA its weird! like.. I have things in my head but i can't get it out!

Anyways, something I'm working on is feeling content being single! ahah dont get me wrong! Singleness is AWESOME! haah its like... fun! haha no need to waste money, be creative or w/e haah even though doing that stuff can be fun! but sometimes i'm not always content.  I want to be able to say to God that He is sufficient for me!  He's all I need!  and if I think about it, LOL ITS TRUE! ahah His love is sooo much more than all the girls in the world's love combined is!  LOL He IS love! HAHA so He is better!  I don't know how to describe this, but I can't wait till the day where I am truly content being single... not worrying about girls, just knowing that God will Provide! AHAH JOKES because my name means God Provides! LOL (Jehovah Jireh) 

LOL i feel better already! LOl i think! HAHA Starting to feel happy that He loves me/us/everybody! LOL ohh LOL that kind of implied that I wasnt feeling happy before.. LOL just clarification, I was happy.. just happy with a heartache! LOL if that even makes sense.. or maybe I wasn't happy! LOL iunno! AHHA i dont rmb! LOL

I have a tendency on forgetting things.. i have bad short term memory nowadays! ahah so, if you wanna share a secret, TELL ME! :D HAHA cos i'll just forget it nd never tell anyone! LOL JKJK I'll rmb it! but i'll like.. put it away in my memory so taht i won't rmb it unless you want me to! LOL

Smile and be Happy! :D