Truck drivers!! :D

Though I’ve realized this before, I keep re-realizing things! Haah! Work is truly a mission field and I need prayer!!! Not just for myself, but for everyone I interact with! That God will touch their hearts and work in them! So if you don’t mind reading the following, I’d appreciate it if you prayed for me and everything! ahah

So, work today was super interesting!! Cept tiring, cos I worked 9 hours…butttt, for the first bit, I was wearing my ACF sweater cos it was cold.  In the front, there’s a cross and it says “rooted in Christ” and on the back, a bible verse from Col. 2:6-7 I think…haha! Anyway, I remember a while back, (2 weeks ago), I shared the gospel and talked to my co-worker about God! And it was so cool…just seeing God work and being super faithful to me, though I was sort of scared!  At the time, I told ppl about it and they prayed for him! And some of them were sort of joking around and said, you should share the gospel with truck drivers! And I’m like…”uhh, probably not the best time to talk to them about the gospel…but if God opens the door, I’ll go through it”  So then, I guess, later that day, I prayed to God that He would continue opening doors for me to be a light and share to others about Him!  So as the weeks passed, I guess I forgot about that prayer until God opened the door for me today!! Haha!

So, while I was wearing that sweater, one of the truck drivers starting talking about church/going to church/his friends and stuff…saying things like “you should never be forced to do something you don’t want to do” and it was interesting!!! Haha! At that point I realized… “nice, he know’s I’m a Christian! Lol let’s talk!!” I thought about just continuing with the survey and being “professional” but then I thought about it again and I’m like… who cares!?!? In the whole scheme of things, this man’s salvation is a million times more important than…”being professional”! so I started talking to him! Sort of snuck in the gospel!.. the need for God, how God sent his son for us, and how we just need to believe to be saved.  He knew all these things, but I think his heart has been hardened by the fact that he’s seen many of his “Christian” friends who just aren’t good examples and “devoted” their life to God too much.  When he described it, to me, it just seemed like they were not being good stewarts of their money.  They were not “working as if working for the Lord”…they were using God as an excuse to be lazy about their lives and be a bad witness to this man!  I’m glad he said he’s still open to go to church and stuff, but it hurts my heart seeing this man for some reason! And I really wanna ask you all to just pray for him! His name is Don.  Pray that God would soften his heart to His Spirit!  I recommended him to go to a Harvest church because I know they are good for the most part!  So really pray that he will take that step and that God will use people in his life to bring him closer!  I really pray that God will pursue him!

I think the scariest thing about sharing the gospel with strangers is that you always wish you said more!  Since we didn’t share contact information, we are literally planting the seed, and praying and knowing that God will be faithful and water it if it needs!  I don’t know if I’ll ever see Don again, but I pray, that if I do, it will be us rejoicing together and praising God together in heaven! :)

Jireh :) 

LONG TRIPS!

HAHA long trips all alone sort of make me unsociable!!
So I started the trip off with seeing  a mustang cheerleader who was a girl, and I ALMOST said hi to her! LOL i didn't cos i didn't know her...but i'm pretty sure she saw me staring at her! haha i only knew cos she was wearing the alibi sweater! haha anyways, since i didn't end up saying anything to her or anybody, I essentially sat in the train and said nothing the whole time...except for a few phone calls i made to my family regarding rides and stuff!

but OH MAN!! i feel like i almost forgot to speak! AHHA and boy, i feel like my mind has not thought of as many things as it has now in so long!!! like, i like alone time, but sometimes, i feel like it literally hurts my brain! HAAH like its a mental challenge!!!!  sometimes, I wonder if studying is actually what's so hard for me? or if it's just not saying anything while i'm conscious for more than an hour!!  I guess, I truly am an extrovert!  all this time, I was convince that I was a loud extrovert...I do like my alone time, but really, not that much! maybe 1 hr per day is good for me! outside of that, I prefer to be in the company of friends and family and just fellowship together!
I'm not going to say I hate being alone because I am never alone! and I know God has been using this time to teach me so many things, but all this time alone (living alone in hotels, long train trips and etc) has made me realize that I enjoy the company of others!
And, okay, lol just to clarify...I'm not saying this because I'd rather be with friends/family over God...but I just love fellowship and being with ppl i love! (btw, i see the moon right now and it looks suupper cool! ahah) and yeah!! but yeah i do like my alone time here and there! it is very much needed sometimes! haha

anyways, I hope i didn't forget how to speak to ppl! OMG on that note, i forgot how to write the number "5" HAAHAH! it was so weird today!! i was doing the log book and i wrote out 5 a couple of times, then i thought about writing a 5, and i couldn't figure out how to write it without it looking like i a preschooler who just learned how to write!! haha anyways, so jokes!! I'm pretty much in toronto now!! see you laterrr!!

Jireh!

VOD: Genesis 39:17-18

Genesis 39:17-18
Then she told him this story: “That Hebrew slave you brought us came to me to make sport of me. But as soon as I screamed for help, he left his cloak beside me and ran out of the house.”

This past Tuesday, I had a time to talk and share with brothers in Christ, and one of them talked about Potiphar's wife.

For those that don't know the background story here, you can either read Genesis 39 for all the deets, or my short summary...
Joseph is a slave, but his master likes him so put him in charge of everything he owns except for his wife obviously.  One day, he leaves and his wife approaches Joseph (cos he's good looking) and asks him to sleep with her and he says "no".  She becomes persistent and he comes to the point where he avoids her.  One day, she grabs her cloak and used it against him...which leads us to the verse above!

I guess the important thing to get out of this was that although the wife here seems like she's innocent and good, she is not.  She is putting on a show.  On the outside she is crying out and screaming for help, she is telling her servants and her husband these things, but on the inside, she is not that way.
So, I guess the question that comes in here is "do you hate sin?" or do you "scream for help" when you sin?  Is your heart changed? or do you just put on a show?  When you pray for a sin in your life, do you pray and hate the sin? I feel like you get my point...cos it's so interesting!!  If God was my number one priority in life, if he was the soul most important thing in my life, anything that blocked me from His presence I would want to tear away because He is just so great and I don't want anything to block me from Him!

I pray that God would give me hatred for what He hates.  That I wouldn't be like...oh everyone sins...but hate sin.  Instead of focussing on sin, focussing on God and all of His greatness and righteousness! :)

Not sure if this blog makes sense...thoughts are still sort of jumbled, but I hope you get the point! :)

Jireh!

VOD: Matt 6:33

Matthew 6:33
"But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."

I feel like everyone knows this verse, but sometimes takes this verse for granted! There is so much power...so much faith involved in living out this verse...To seek God FIRST! to have faith that when you seek God first, all these things (worldly things, and such) will come as well!  It's so true that sometimes, we prioritize other things in our life...Food, school, family, girls/guys, friends...stuff! lol but even the most basic things like food.  You hunger for food physically and you eat it.  Does your spirit hunger God? If you miss a "meal" does your body notice? Or have you become numb? I know that when i don't eat for a day...the first parts are the worst!!! i feel super hungry.. but then, after a little while, i lose my hunger pains and my stomach feels numb...literally! Seeking God first is so important! Being sensitive to the Spirit has so much value! Jesus tells us to seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and to have faith that once you do that, all other things will be added to you as well!

Just for clarity, I'm not saying that you should go on not caring about anything except for God because that would be contradictory to what God wants! He doesn't want you to starve your body because you don't care about it...your body is a temple! He doesn't want you to not care about school/work...we are called to work at everything as if working for God! but once you seek God, all these things will make sense...they will sort of fall into place if you truly seek God for seeking God!

:)

VOD: Psalms 139:23-24 (yesterdays)

So yesterday, I came across this verse:
Psalms 139:23-24
"Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!"

And I was sort of thinking to myself!...would I actually say that?! haha "search me, O God, and know my heart!" I almost prefer if not! because my heart is evil! "try me and know my thoughts!" my thoughts are evil too... LOL "and see if there be any grievous way in me"... I am 100% sure there are grievous ways in me!! I guess, what I would say is "lead me in the way everlasting!" because I would want my life to be led by God!

Sometimes I wonder if I could ever say those words...just because I feel like it may almost always be rhetorical! My heart and my thought and my ways will always be sinful...and it's almost embarrassing to ask God to look at and search them! And it's so true I guess, if God looks at me and sees me...in His eyes, it's probably like some black mess of sinfulness...just cos He's just so perfect! Which then reminds me of God's grace to me! And Imputed righteousness!! Christ imputing His righteousness onto us, and us imputing our sin onto Him.  Because of Jesus, and because of what He has done for me, I can say those words! Because of Jesus, God can look at me and see Jesus.  I'm not saying that I'm perfect, or that because of Jesus I can do whatever I want...we are called to press on towards sanctification! but, it's always so great...thinking of God's grace and what He has done for me.  No longer a slave to sin, but a slave to righteousness and obedience to God! :)