Patience..

Recently, I think God has been teaching me patience...and to wait on Him!

Anyways, I'll talk about this...even though it's pretty private, but honestly, I technically only have 20 followers! LOL so this blog is quite private i guess!! lol plus, the person I prefer not reading this blog post doesn't read my blog! haha i think! at least, i don't recall her ever talking to me ever about it!

In a nutshell, i started liking this girl in the beginning of sept/end of august area! and since then, I have been praying for her a lot!...hoping she'd be my DG! praying that if she is my DG, that God would prepare me for her and prepare her for me...spiritually, mentally and physically! ahaha! I've also been determined to grow stronger in my faith...determined to know Him better so i could become a better spiritual leader if I ever entered a dating relationship with this girl. I was being careful not to try to "impress" this girl through showing "how strong a christian i am" kind of thing.. cos that annoys me! LOL in fact... we haven't even talked about much faith related issues because of that i guess! but we still talk about other stuff and laugh! haha ANNYWAYS, I wanted to talk to her about our relationship yesterday (Jan 2, 2012) also (1/2/12) just saying!  If you're a close friend of me, you'd know why i chose that day! haha! anyways! that didn't work out! as in.. me talking to her! BTW for those thinking weird things.. i wasn't going to ask her out or anything! ... I'm not really going to go into any more detail... so don't assume things that I didn't type out! HAHA Anyways, because of the way it didn't work out, i learned that either...1, she is my DG but it is not the right time or 2...she isn't my DG and it's not the right time. AHAH yeah! pretty obvious options! but what is common in both!?
IT IS NOT THE RIGHT TIME!
This really bothered me! HAHA because I seriously thought I was ready!  I talked to many people I respected to see if they thought I was "ready" and they all gave me an "okay".  I thought in my heart that I was ready to lead a Godly relationship (even though i was SUPER nervous about it! LOL) so everything just sort of added up for me as "this is a good idea..to start now/super soon"...
Yesterday, I was at McDonalds doing some devos with my siblings... its a habit we started since Christmas break started.

During prayer my sister was praying for me to God and was like "God, thankyou for Jireh and I have seen how much he has grown in you recently... like its obvious" something like that! and then i started talking to God after that.  First i laughed and i'm like.. no i didn't !LOL then i started talking to God in my head while my sister was praying! LOL (SORRY!) "God...I guess i did grow a lil didn't I...*sigh*" God was like.. "yes you did! :) why though?" and i was like.. uhhh LOL becaause i wanted to become a good father, husband and spiritual leader....God was like "not a bad reason...so, ur saying, that you love me because you want to love your family?" LOL i was like.. FAIL! and He kept going "Jireh.. i know your thoughts!  I want to be #1 in your life!  If you desire a Christ centred relationship, I need to be the centre of your life...I need to be #1, not your future family, not your DG, not one of your crushes, not your future kids!"  haha and yeah! during that prayer time, God told me all this stuff! and i was like.. wooow!  I am totally not ready for a relationship yet! I need to wait on God!  I need to love Him ... because I love Him! haha!

BTW...please don't ask me who it is... or say who it is if you know! I only mentioned it as a background thing to what i really wanted to say! lol so yeah! thanks!

anyways!
SMILE and be happy!! :D