Dream Guy!

LOL so this isn't about what you guys think! i'm NOT going gay.. trust! ahah!
I need to take a step back and reflect...

Today during ACF something stuck out to me a lot.  something to do with.. I can always keep looking for my dream girl forever and maybe even find her... BUT, will I be the kind of guy she'd want to date and marry? tbh, right now, I DONT THINK SO!! LOLOL just being honest... I don't think i'd date myself! ahah like.. if I was a girl... u know what I mean...but yeah!  I need to be the Dream Guy my Dream Girl wants! oh yeah! :)  When I was younger, I used to always try improving myself so taht i could do this!  LOL tbh, the only reason I'm nice now is cos in like.. gr 6 or something, my mom was like.. "Jireh! you know girls don't like mean guys? or guys that annoy them?" and i was like oh dangg! i need to be nice so that i can get girls! AHAH I think that's what I thought.. i don't really rmb... but now, I'm pursuing to be the dream guy my dream girl wants!  To do this, i really need to straighten up my relationship with God! *sigh * like actually! haah sometimes i feel close, nd like.. litereally 10 mins later, i can feel super far from Him!  I need to love God so much more than I do now before I can start being the man i need to be because our relationship has to have a strong foundation on Him.... LOL not on like.. "ur pretty"feelings or w/e
Anyways, Dream Girl, I pray I can be a man that honours and loves God and you (and yes, that is in order of priority!) and be your Dream Guy!

Smile and be happy! :D