Ahhhh! right now i have this weird feeling in my body!!!!! don't reallly know what it is!!! but its like a mix of sad/happy/weird/nervous/scared/dunno LOL it's a weird feeling!!! but what i've realized is that maybe I am an extrovert! LOLOL like, i do like alone time and stuff, but I REALLY love being around people!!!! and just chilling!!! even if we don't do anything!! i like the presence of my friends!!! This weekend was pretty lonely!! even though i only had to be alone for like.. 5 hours LOL, it was lonely!!! for those who don't know, this weekend was ACF's fall retreat, and also Western's homecoming!! anyways, since i am a cheerleader, I had to cheer all day saturday...legit from 9:30am until like 5pm! I got home...to an empty house cos my 4 housemates were out on retreat...then i took a really fast shower then hit the sack!! and fell asleep for a good 2-3 hours!! LOL i was actually so tired/dehydrated/burnt from the sun! LOL so yeah!! that sleep felt soo good!! but then when i woke up, no one was home still!! it was sort of sad!!! and the place i live, A LOT of my neighbours are from ACF and they were all gone!! (or so i thought)...so i didn't even bother leaving my house... just stayed and did some homework and stuff.. but it was so lonely! :( and sad!! LOL i could have went to a party, but it was just too far and stuff..and honestly, i wasn't in the mood for that kind of stuff!! i just wanted to chill with friends/talk/be happy! LOL I ended up watching the matrix! LOL it was interesting!!! i think the last time i watched it, i had no idea what was going on!!! LOL now i actually get it!! HHA so funny!! but yea! that was interesting! but yeah!! all in all, my saturday was tiring and lonely!
Anyways, my friends came home today, and i had the opportunity to chill with them!! :D made me pretty happy!!! :D they told me about their retreat and stuff!!! and I'm really happy for them!! I really wish i could have gone too, but it's okay i guess!! hopefuly i can go to the winter retreat!! i was able to go last year!! so yeah! HAHA *crossing fingers*
Anyways, back to this weird feeling i have!! no idea what it is!! it's just weird! and i can't really explain it! Sometimes I think about my DG...and honestly, I have no idea who God has in mind for me, but I wish I could meet her soon!
mmm u know what i just thought about? I don't think i spent a lot of time with God this weekend! :(!! shooott!! that could also be a reason why i felt so lonely! LOLOL oh wow! its October now!! my birthday is coming up!! danngg!!! i'm sort of excited!!! but at the same time, i'm going to be 20.... soo old! i won't be a teen anymore!! its sort of sad!!! haha i feel like i'm so sad right now! LOL but yeah! maybe cos i actually legit haven't been spending enough time with Him!! cos i find that there is a very positive correlation between my happiness/joy and the time i spend wiht God daily!!! need to get back on top of that!!!! oh man!! such a weird feeling!!! omg!! i think i'm starting to understand this feeling now!!! its like hunger...but not!! i thought it was cos i missed my friends! mmmm interesting! lol! anyways, i guess this weekend, i didn't focus enough on the right things! this is interesting!! lol this is legit why i blog!!! it helps me realize things! HAAHA
ANYWAYS! hope ur all doing welll!! :D haha
Jireh!
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