shooting star

I know I've posted this video like a million times on my blog, but yeah! I was listening to it today and this evening, I saw a shooting star! haha crazy!
Sometimes, I do wonder how my dream girl is doing! :P

Anyways, I'm hoping to start up a morning prayer thing weekly on Mondays! :) hopefully it goes well!!

and... i met this girl who always ends convos with God bless or something! and i realized that I feel uncomfortable doing that!! I need to work on it...

May you all have a blessed day :)

Jireh!

wow! my small group leader just had a baby today!!!
iuno why, it's just so amazing seeing new life!!! God is truly amazing!! *sigh* I'm thankful cos seeing these things sort of give me a desire to work harder in school!! I desire a family!...a wife and kids! I don't know when that will happen, but i'm excited to see how God will work through everything!! Can't wait to look back and see how God writes my love story! :) I just know it's going to be so beautiful!

Jireh! :)

Peaceful and joyful!

Man, I don't know how to even explain this!! for omgoodness!! there is sooo much joy that comes with peace!!! I'm ususally a super happy dude in general, but when I get that peace that transcends from God...dangg!! you are just filled with this immense joy that you sort of can't explain!! and you just want to tell everyone ur just happy! and so satisfied in Him! haha

Anyways, recently, God gave me a vision!!! as in like, I know what I need to do!  Like, i don't know how to explain it! I just feel like God gave me direction with my life and i feel so much better about it!  Liikke I feel like i know what i need to do...like with everything! like with school, with my career, with my DG, just with things in general!! i just have this...immense peace about everything! it's super weird, but i'm so grateful! haha it's weird cos i got peace but at the same time motivation?! you know? aha! it's hard to explain! but i just feel so grateful that God has been working in my life without me really realizing it!...and then it sort of hits!

Anyways, I'm just happy! Can't wait for everything! as in like.. i'm just excited for everything! haha excited to move on with life, excited for school so i can glorify God in my studies, excited for my future job so i can glorify God in my workplace, excited for my future wife so I can glorify God in how i lead and serve her, excited for my future family so I can glorify God in providing for them in all aspects and excited to die and meet God and be sanctified!! Just so excited! and I'm just so glad God has given me vision for the future! now, I got to live it out!...the hardest part! but i know He will be with me the whole time! :)

Smile! :D
Jireh!

reminding myself

Yesterday, I wanted to comfort/encourage a friend and gave him 3 songs! the 3 songs that have had so much meaning in my life during my third year of university.  The songs were the following:
Lay Me Down
Forever Reign
All I Have is Christ

and wow...just listening to those songs reminded me so much of what I've learned...
Like really! the lyrics of all of them are so convicting! and I guess, if you think about it, those 3 songs are actually super connected! It starts off with lay me down...The conviction that you have in your heart when you realize that you are not your own and you belong to God alone!  When you realize all you can, should and want to do is lay your life down to God! Not to anything else, but to Him alone! because you know that He has the best plan for you, and He loves you.
And in times of hardship, when you don't know what to say, you say, "you are good, you are good when there's nothing good in me" When you lay down your life to God, He is everything for you! He is good, love, light, hope, peace, true, joy, life, more, Lord, here, God and just moree! And all you can do is run into his arms because he loves you!  When you have left this world behind you, laid down your life to God, and run into his arms because He is everything, you then realize something so beautiful...that all you have is Christ!
You are in his arms! and you are free from this world, free from sin, but in His presence and you are just in awe of His greatness and majesty and his love. And all you can say is "Hallelujah! All i have is Christ!! Hallelujah! Jesus is my life!!" and this world grows dim, and knowing Jesus is all that matters to you!

I pray that when the time comes, I will be able to lay down my life to God! Like in Job, I need to realize that the Lord gives and the Lord takes away!...and to find joy even when he takes away because I know God has a plan! He knows. I pray I will be able to truly say with joy "Your will, your way, ALWAYS!"

Jireh :)

Christ pursues me!!

I am so glad!!! HAHA because no matter what, Christ is always pursuing me!  Even though I don't deserve it, as long as I want Him, He is ALWAYS there for me! ... Like always!  It's actually funny because it's actually super duper easy...yet at the same time, it's not...because you don't always feel like pursuing it!  But then when you do pursue Christ, you realize that it's so much better!  He gives you hope, love and joy!! and so much more!

Today i was reading James 1 and all I can say is that I really needed to read that! (I haven't read James in a while cos I read is so much before and I'm like i wanna explore new passages, but i felt the spirit nudging me to read it! LOL so i was like... okay! and He really spoke to me through it! and really comforted me!.. though I already knew the stuff it said, it was such a great reminder!  I can feel Christ pursuing me!) even today's sermon spoke to me today!!! It was about what it takes to be a disciple of Christ! and it's really not easy! it truly is all or nothing! and it actually is "the best or nothing" haha! all being the best LOL just incase u guys didn't catch that!  There were some things in the sermon that I really liked and really helped encourage me!

Christ is so amazing!  He always loves me, even when I don't feel like loving Him back!  His love for me is unconditional and purposeful...super intentional! I pray that one day, I will be able to love like Christ loves!  That I will be able to pursue the same way He pursues! And that in everything, I may do everything to glorify God!  I pray that I will truly love my wife like Christ loves me/the church.  It's such an amazing parallel!  I pray that I will never complain...that I will never blame my wife for anything, but to love her like Christ loves me...unconditionally! and continue to pursue her patiently and gently yet firm just how Christ continually pursues me!

okay i was chilling with jeff and brian! so I forgot my thoughts! LOLOl oh well!!!! haha!

SMile!!

Jireh!

Your will, Your way, ALWAYS!

Recently I've been feeling a little bit down!! and I was looking for some encouragement so last night, I went to my handy dandy DailyBible app on my phone!! haha and the verse of the day was the following:
Psalm 27:14
"Wait for the Lord, be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."
and oh my!!!! LOL i don't know if you understand the feeling of when things happen EXACTLY when they need to happen!! but that's what it was last night for me!!! I was thinking about my dream girl and just girls in general and was feeling anxious!! i was like ... "GOD, what's your plan for me?? When will I finally be united with my dream girl?" and just like those kind of thoughts...and things just didn't always go the way i wanted! I'd rely on my own powers instead of God's and when I read this verse...."Wait for the Lord, be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."...wooow!! I really needed to hear that verse at that exact time!! "take heart!!" haha have faith!! TRUST IN HIM ALONE!! "don't rely on your own strength Jireh!! or your "lucky boxers" LOLOL! TRUST IN ME!!!" I heard God telling me this through that verse!!! and then one of my new fave songs started to come into my head!...Lay Me Down by Chris Tomlin! here are some of the lyrics: "I lay me down I'm not my own, I belong to You alone"!!! and woww!!! that is so powerful!!! I am God's! He CHOSE me!! yet, sometimes i want to take things in my own hands when I should rely on God because His way is the best way!! and becasue I belong to Him!! He's adopted me!! I have inherited sonship and will be coheirs with Christ!!! that is just so amazing!..."there's no life apart from you" yeah!! it's just so true!! I've been trying to do some things wiht my own strength and try to live my life without the need or trust on God!  I need to pray more!! and yeahh!! the bridge of the song! "It will be my joy to say, Your will, Your way, ALWAYS!" that's amazing! because I really just have been thinking about this too!! You can always say, "yes God, you are sovereign, do whatever you please" but to say, "God, YOUR will for me is my joy! You alone are sovereign!" is sooo different! becasue for me, when things I want to happen don't happen the way I personally want them to, I get upset/sad (mostly sad)! BUT, "It will be my joy to say YOUR WILL, YOUR WAY!" so i shouldn't be sad!!! because the fact that God has a plan for me is a privilege!!! it's amazing!!! because He alone is all knowing!! I don't know anything!! if I had to live my life with my will, and my way, I would probably just fail!! but God's will for me is a privilege!! I am Lucky to have been chosen by Him and His will for me is sovereign and I will take joy in knowing that I and trust in Him!! and I can wait for Him and know that his will, his way is the best for me!  I can wait for the Lord, be strong and take heart and wait for Him alone!

Jireh!

Happy together!

So I heard this song the radio a couple days ago and i woke up hearing it in my head so i wanted to blog about it!!!  I actually like the lyrics!!! its so cutee!!! and this is like a song i want to say to my dream girl!!  When I am with you, I want to be happy!! and i want us to be happy together!! like yeah, i'm already usually happy, but when i'm with you, i'll be happier? LOL *sigh* It's sort of one of those qualities i really look for when I date a girl.  If i find myself becoming more miserable when i'm with her (in general), then iunno if it'd be able to work out!  YEAH, there wil be times when i'm miserable because of disagreements and etc.... but I want the overal net relationship to be happy! and I want us BOTH to be happy.  If I'm making u more miserable, then i dont think it can work out either! :) SURE, i know this sort of sounds like a super surface quality, but I find it important! When I hear the lyrics "I cant see me loving nobody but you, for all my life" I truly thought about you DG! And that is what I want! haha

Anyways, i feel like i got sick randomly! sort of sucks, but i feel like i should be albe to recover soon! LOL

SMILE!

Jireh!

Rest day

Today is my rest day!! i really need to rest, but at the same time i don't want to!!! i want to workout!! haha but, if you constantly workout without rest ever... esp if ur doing like.. crossfit, it's sort of bad i think!! unless ur body is crazy! but at least for me, I need rest or my performance just goes down and I become more prone to injury!!! so i don't want that!! And, i know i have cheer practice tomorrow!! so i need to rest my shoulders so that I may be able lift girls tomorrow!! Even though they feel not to sore today, i know they are, cos i worked them out like.. 3-4 days in a row! AHAH whoops! oh well! and think i did handstand pushups one day, then pushpress and push jerk the next day, then stunted the day after and yesterday i did shoulder press LOLOL so yeah... today i need to rest them so they can get stronger!

Yesterday, I felt superly convicted again to read the Bible EVERYDAY again.  Not just when i think i should or w/e... and not just one verse per day either.  I need to really read the Bible everyday! seriously and let God take over my life again! i was convicted of this about 2-3 weeks ago as well, sort of, but yeah!  or last time, it was more like, i realized that God is just always there for me and He loves me! and stuff and that all i need to do to get close wtih Him again was to just spend time with Him because He's always free to chill with me! Anyways, from now on, i need to make sure I spend time with Him daily!!! haha even if it's a struggle i thiink!!! having intentional faith is very important! and i'm realizing that more and more! like i realized it before and did something about it, but then, my relationship with God became too...emotionally based.. which was good, but bad!  I need to love God with more than just my heart!  I need to love Him with all my mind AND soul as well!!

Anyways, today is such a nice dayyyy! it lookes sooo pretty outside!!! i sort of wish i lived close to a park!!! even thoug my backyard is sort of like a park... cept there's too many mosquitos in my backyard!!! there are less in parks!
I need my girl to like nature! I want to be able to go on a date with my DG one day and JUST sit and look at God's wonder! like.. watching a sunset/sunrise.. and just watching it with me and not get bored! AHAH or just sitting in a park with me and watching little kids play and enjoying that!! haah iunno! okay obviously we can talk cos there may be stuff we'd wanna say to each other, but, mostly just enjoying each other's company and enjoying stuff like that together!! iunno! just being still and relaxing!! haha! i know.. maybe a lil weird, but i like doing that myself! so...i hope my DG will like doing that too!!! :D or something! iunno!!!

So, this is a pic of my and my sis!! this is not an example of what I'd want to do with my dg or anything!! just a nice pic of a sunset at a beach!! and believe it or not, the "cradle" position is not that comfortable if you have to hold it for extended amounts of time! haha But yeah! God's creation is pretty cool eh?!!?

SMILE!

Jireh!

one day

I watched this video, and thought of you (i'm talking to my dream girl btw)

I don't really know what to say! cept that I love you and I can't wait until the moment God brings us both together!  Watching this video really made me wish i could get married to you tmr! lol but i know in my heart that this day will come! And I know that I'm not ready to meet you yet!  I need to get my act together! LOL but yeah! still, i can wait,  but i'm excited for the day! i'm bad with words! but i hope you get how i feel!!

Smile! :)

Jireh!

Dream Girl, i need to love you!

DREAM GIRL! make sure you know that I love you!! like.. a lot! and I am working hard to love you as Christ loves the church!  I guess this post is for you in the future..after we are happily married! HAHA but yeah!! Make sure I obey Ephesians 5:25-33!!
"²⁵ Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her ²⁶ to make her holy, cleansing^[b]her by the washing with water through the word, ²⁷ and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. ²⁸ In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. ²⁹ After all, no one ever hated their own body, but they feed and care for their body, just as Christ does the church— ³⁰ for we are members of his body. ³¹ “For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh.”^[c] 32 This is a profound mystery—but I am talking about Christ and the church. ³³ However, each one of you also must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband."
I want to love you like that! haha...having unconditional love and at the same time, having love for God and submitting to His authority and word!  It is my theory that if I do my role as your husband (verses 25-33), your role as wife will be much easier (verses 22-24) haha

Anyways, hope you're doing well!!

Smile and be happy!

Jireh!

I need to stop forgetting!!

DREAM GIRL!!! I need to stop forgetting who you are! So last night, I had a dream and you were definitely in it... and here's the thing, I forget what the dream was about, but I still feel the impression you left me.. if that makes sense!  I sort of wish i could dream of you all the time so i could see you more! and actually rmb who you are!!  Anyways, in my dream, i felt like i just knew u super well!! that I didn't notice that you were my dream girl! it was weird! until i woke up.. i was like.. she was the one! and i'm like.. oh yeah so who was she again? AND I FORGOT!! i couldn't rmb her name OR face.. yet in my dream, her face or name wasn't something i had to think about, cos it was so familiar to me!! *sigh* i can't even rmb if i knew u before the dream...it seemed like i did because i knew u well, but at the same time.. i really have no idea!  Honestly though, I thank God I can't remember her face..cos think about it...IT"D BE SO WEIRD!! cos then i'd be looking for that specific girl.. and okay. what if i find her? it's be so weird....cos i can't go up to her and be like. "ur the one" or w/e.. i'd stil have to try to win her heart!  I guess not knowing is good sometimes! but there are days I wish i knew who my DG was!

I get this feeling of like.. deep love for some reason.. i don't know how to describe it besides the word love.  It's like.. agape love or something.... that deep love for a person.. no matter what!...unconditional love that also has a passion.  its interesting! haha

Anyways,

SMILE and have a good day! :D

JIREH!

Crossfit again!

I just started doing crossfit again.. and man!!!! lol tiring stuff!! tomorrow i need a rest day! LOL and i barely did stuff! LOL

Did sooo much deadlifts/backsquats in the past few days! LOL my lower back is actually soooo sooorrree!! HAHA i needa go to my dad's clinic and get some electrode stuff! haha soo useful having a father as a physio! ahaha but yeah! it won't be as easily accessed after this summer!  my parents are moving up north to Sudbury!! LOLOL RANDOM EH!? haha oh well!! but i think it'll be a good new chapter of their lives! haha i just won't have the convenience of having a physio clinic i can go to for free 20 mins from my house! LOL

Anyways! new PR for power clean: 230lbs! :D haha i tried snatching 175lbs the other day.. kept on failing though!!!! :(:( snatching has A LOT of technique involved in it.. so i think for now, i'll just lower the weights and work on getting under the bar and stuff and just work on overhead squats so that when i do get the bar over my head, I can stand up! we'll see though!! haha for my cleans, i don't think i really have that good technique either...but i have power, so its okay for now... but i think i need to work on my technique too so i can squat clean...cos i can't really squat clean heavy weights LOL only the lighter ones!

OH and DG! i was thinking of you recently! i hope you like roses! I was reading up on roses! it's so interesting! lol

SMILE and be happy! :D

Jireh!

Staying positive! (but don't read this if I've ever liked you thanks)!

Getting rejected sort of sucks.  Yes, I know it's not as bad as breaking up or w/e...but that's not what i'm talking about at the moment! haha I'm talking about getting rejected by a girl...or really anything!! Getting rejected from Uni/college, rejected from a job.. but yeah i wont go into that now LOL

I saw a picture on 9gag while studying... LOL yes I'm a nerd!  You see, what I realized is that 9gag is for nerds LOL... all the jokes are really nerdy. .and you have to either be familiar with nerds or be a nerd to find the jokes funny! LOL sure you'll understand them. but it won't be as funny! anyways, i guess this one applies to mostly anyone!
Warning of unhappy Jireh between the *****!!! just saying! LOL

This is how I feel when I get rejected! AHAH or how I should feel!  ACTUALLY, its how i feel for the first day! i think in my head "HER LOSS!" lol but then haha yeah! then... at least for me, I'll get sad about 2 weeks later! LOL but yeah! OKay, i'm going to vent for a sec! sorry for the negativity! LOL i'm not like this boy fully yet! but i will be!
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I think the worst part of getting rejected by a girl or something is the phase afterwards.. the next 1-2 years of total awkwardness/alienation.  really dislike it...I just asked her out cos i liked her and we were pretty good friends, but then she ignores you for the longest time or w/e! anyways...the "let's just be friends" thing sucks too, but that only sucks when it's a break-up i guess.. and when that phrase is used to break up ! LOL but yeah.. if i was fond of you and really enjoyed being friends with you....why would i want you to like.. defriend me? LOL anyways! it does make sense! HAAH if i was a girl I'd do the same thing, cos there are a lot of weird guys out there that are obsessive and don't have good emotional control over themselves LOL so i don't blame the girls! I'm just venting! LOL and venting is not supposed to make sense! LOL
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Anyways, hopefully in the future, if i get rejected again, I will be like this young boy! because if you think about it, it is super logical! LOL and it's cute! HAH and its funny!! because it truly is the best thing! anyways, i'm super hungry.. and i need to buy food!

And i guess. .thinking about it as well...I really only want to date 1 person in my life.  and I want her to be my DG! :D  So in a way, I'd rather get rejected by 99 girls and not rejected by my 1 DG than date 99 girls before finding my 1 DG! haha

See y'all later!!
Sorry if i made you unhappy! LOL

JIREH!

If I had a billion dollars!

I feel like this is a question people always think of...essentially, "what would you do if someone gave you loads of money?" and I know exactly what I'd do now!
Before, I used want to like.. retire haha, or like. travel the world...or like just do everything I can do with a lot of money!! NOT BAD CHOICES!!! but still, if granted the opportunity, I wouldn't know!

Anyways, just now, I was taking a shower and I thought about this question..."If I had a billion dollars, what would I do with it?" and I decided!  Here is what i'd do if i was given the opportunity this year!!!
Find an investment banker or something.. or someone who knows how to make that money grow for the time being and invest it.. put it into stocks and whatnot.. #tylerinfluence LOL but yeah, i don't really know what I'm talking about, but i heard that it's a waste to "save" money when you can invest it...
NEXT, I'd drop out of my current program and switch into Kinesiology (not because it's easier, but because I find it interesting and I'd also get a new start at school since my marks atm are not so good) and i'd probably stay in Western University cos i like it here!
NEXT, I'd study super hard for MCATs this summer and find a summer job/research/anything i can get to get any kind of volunteer/work experience.. then write my MCATs at the end of the summer for experience i guess
NEXT, I'd get a 4.0 GPA in my undergrad cos I'll be working much harder now in life because I have a goal...
NEXT, after 3rd year, I'll get into Mac Medschool (a 3 year program) how? don't know...
NEXT, find my DG
NEXT, graduate from medschool 6 years from now then specialize and become a sports doctor
(btw, I'll be paying for medschool and undergrad with my summer jobs/billion dollars)
NEXT, MARRY my DG! :D:D
NEXT, start a crossfit gym, not that close to other crossfit gyms cos i don't want to compete or anything.. maybe start it off in my garage til i get more people, then expand!
NEXT, Go back to school and learn how to become a chef
NEXT, Expand my crossfit gym and have it in a new plaza area.. along with that, an area for physio and sports medicine (me being the sports doctor and crossfit trainer!) I'd probalby hire physios as well and stuff for the clinic
NEXT, start a gourmet cafe right next to my crossfit gym called "Jireh's" lol
and then.. just be as good as a father and husband as possible...spending as much time as I can with my family!
In the end, I'll have a wonderful family, with a crossfit gym, sports/rehab center/clinic, and a cafe!

So yeah! :) that is what I'd do if I was given a billion dollars today.. or anytime this year! lol

Smile!

Jireh

dreams!

I know I already made a post about this way long ago, but I just want to say it again!  I love dreaming! ...any kind of dreaming, really! It's really fun, relaxing and for me, all my dreams end happy! I've only ever had one dream where I almost died, but that was even pretty stupid! haha! For that dream, I got shot multiple times in the chest and fell off a cliff and into a dark ocean.  Then, I tried to swim to the top to try to survive, but then I look down, LOL and I see the bullet holes in my chest and see water going through them and I was like... well, I'm going to die no matter what, might as well enjoy my last few minutes! So I stopped swimming to the surface, looked up and let my self sink and just relax! haha it was not that bad actually! it felt good! but then, this was a dream and obviously getting shot in the chest will not FEEL good! haha!

Anyways, last night was not that dream! it was a mixture of a lot of just, fun and good dreams!  Things I wish happened, things that make my happy, and all my problems with anyone I knew were resolved!  It was just like, so ideal!  But then sometimes, dreams can make you unhappy, LOL because when you wake up, you realize those thing didn't happen and some of them never will because some things in life aren't your choice to make...

Honestly though, the weather here in London is just getting more and more awesome everyday!  And i'm not exaggerating!  I woke up today, after having some happy dreams and then, also woke up to birds chirping, with the sun out and it being like...warm (16C)!

Oh yeah, I sort of feel bad for not going to church today! :( but then, I did sleep kind of late last night...but then that really isn't a good excuse!  I'll definitely go next week!  I need to feed my spiritual stomach!!! haha! LOL I just thought about you my DG,! LOL haha, just realized that you're probably in church right now! (unless you aren't a christian yet...or aren't born yet LOL..but i'm pretty sure you're living now...oor, you could be like me and just forgot to go! or you could be writing an exam... okay yeah i think you get the point)  Honestly still can't wait to marry you and grow old with you! haha but yeah just saying.. after i see all my grandkids and stuff, I feel like I wouldn't mind dying! lol ... like I wouldn't mind dying between 60-80! haha I just don't want to get TOO old and wrinkly! HAHA and after I feel like i'm done everything in life, I think it doesn't matter if I die!  And also, I hope we die together somehow! like.. one day in bed, we both fall asleep and never wake up or something! cos yeah...ANYWAYS, this is a weird topic! i don't know how I got here!

Anyways, I have to continue reviewing for cell bio now!  I really hope it goes well!

SMILE and be happy!

Jireh!

fit?

OKAY! so i was thinking the other day...about my DG and stuff... and you know what? i think she needs to be fit! LOLyesss... 4D fit.. but more specifically, physically fit as well! LOLi

You see, recently, fitness has become one of my passions, and something I really love a lot! and I just want to have a girl that shares the same or similar passions! LOL nooo.. i don't need some super beast girl that can deadlift 315lbs or something (thats actually kind of weird for me) lOL but some girl who actually enjoys fitness! someone who'd be open to the idea of doing crossfit with me! if she doesnt like it.. okay.. that's fine! she can do her other stuff...w/e she does in the gym to stay fit! or play her sport that she enjoys a lot! LOL just someone I can ask to go to the gym with me and she won't be like..UHH NOOOO or something... haha!

Just a thought!! haha i know it sort of sounds superficial, but I think it's important!  It's important for your future spouse to have similar passions as you, or at least be supportive of the passions you have and for you to be supportive of their passions!

One day, I want to make it to regionals for crossfit! or even the games.. but honestly, i'll talk about that after i get into regionals one day...(prob not this year LOL) but i'll probalby end up doing the open!! HAAH pretty excited for that!

SMILE and be happy!

WHOOPS! vday! LOL

WHOOPS! i sort of forgot about Valentines Day in my blog!!! LOLOL
Like all day i kind of knew about it!! but i only remembered when I saw couples together and stuff or when ppl told me "happy valentines day"! LOL then i went up to a friend and was like, "next year, I'm gonna wear a shirt that says, 'Free hugs to single ladies!!'" LOL and she was like... "Jireh...if you were a girl, would u be attracted to urself?" lol and i was like. "oh.. no... LOL!.. maybe hand out flowers?" and she was like "yuep thats a good idea" and i'm like.. "actually.. no..that's too expensive! LOL" so after thinking we decided chocolates might be the best! LOL cos girls like them and they are cheaper! LOL

*SIGH* anyways! then later that night, i found that one of my friends gave roses to our single lady friends in ACF!! and WOOOWW .. impressed! :) haha I've always thought about doing something like that, but doing it... respect man! :D haha just wanted to say that! cos i think it was cool! :D

Anyways, i don't even know why i didn't think about V-day yesterday when i was blogging!! cos of my DG and stuff! haha so jokess!!

I used to always love Vday cos of the love in the air!! and i love that feeling!!! but..iunno.. i realized the christmas is just so much better! because the love there just seems so much more.. genuine and unconditional! HAHA iunno why!.. just the feeling you get when ur surrounded by people at that time!

Anyways, last night I had a dream about this girl...I don't remember what happened in the dream.. except for the fact that I friggin miss her!! *sigh* kind of makes me sad sometimes! oh well! HAHA don't ask me why i laughed cos its not that funny! lol haha oh well!

There are so many girls that I think are beautiful, that have great personalities..that are just great people in general.. but so few girls i could imagine living my life with...:/ it's weird *sigh*

LOL
Hope you guys had a great V-day!!

Am I content that I'm single still? lol

Sounds like a tough question eh? if you think about it.. i guess.. LOL but really it's not!  Sure, I guess there are those people who find joy in being single and never want to get married...like Paul and stuff... but the thing is.. the vast majority of people I know (including myself) are NOT like Paul...we do not want to live our lives and die single.  Sure, people say that God is enough! and yes.. indeed He truly is...but let's look back to the Old Testament (OT) and take a look at Creation!

So God creates the heavens and the earth.. and everything!! He creates the Garden of Eden and Adam.  He puts Adam in the garden to "work it and take care of it" (Gen. 2:15b).  Then God looks at His creation and sees that Adam NEEDS a helper! "The Lord God said, 'It is not good for the man to be alone.  I wil make a helper suitable for him.'" (Gen. 2:18) and this happened BEFORE the fall.. so before sin entered the world.  And then guess what? God gave Adam a woman, Eve!

Now look at this story and tell me that God wired us to be single...and that being happy and super content with being single all your life is biblical.  Tell me that desiring a wife/husband is sinful!.. LOL you can't! hAHA jokes! cos It's not biblical to just be happy that you are single when God wired you to need a helper!  and its def not sinful to desire a wife/husband!  God looked at Adam BEFORE the fall and saw that it is NOT good for a man to be alone!
Anyways, I got most of these ideas from a Matt Chandler sermon I listened to! it was really good. and one thing he said is this, "I'm content with what Christ is doing in me today, but I don't want to be who I am today, I'm hoping Christ to complete what He began" and that is exactly how I feel about me being single and not married at the moment.  Yes, I'm content...but I don't want to stay this way!  I know God's plan for me is marriage one day and I stand here...surrendering my life to Him because I know His way is the best.

If you're single, it's okay to desire a wife/husband!  I just hear this a lot.. and it sort of bothers me. "as soon as you're content, God will send you a man/woman" and it's not really like that! But I do agree though that when you truly desire God more than a man/woman, He will bless you! and honestly, this doesn't mean you have no desire for a man/woman... but yeah! i'm just complicating myself more atm! LOL so i'll stop! hope you guys get what I'm trying to say! :)

DG, I still can't wait! :)

Smile and be happy!

circadian rhythm again...plus random stuff

HONESTLY, I can't fix my sleeping habits!! they've been just getting more and more messed up!! haha so.. not too long ago, I woke up at 4pm...LOL then i was like.. ohh shoot! i must sleep early to fix this!! so then, i sleep at 10pm! LOL (yes, i was only awake for 6 hours that day) LOL so i'm like nice! in bed! sleep time! so i sleep! then i wake up... at 1am...the next day (so only 3 hrs of sleeping happened) and i was like.. SHOOOOOOOOTTT!! haha and yeah! as you can guess, there was no sleeping that day! I got up, my housemates were still up and we started talking! and my brain woke up and my body obviously wasn't tired! LOL soyeah.. didn't end up sleeping that day until lattteee then i woke up the next day at 9:45am..only have very little sleep.. went to church.. had free coffee! and heard a cool sermon about marriage!! :D (aka yesterday) haha and now.. i'm yeah messed up! cos after i got home from church i crashed and etc! LLOL then i stayed up last night watching "p.s. I love you" which was a really cute movie!!! :D haha

I think i lost all my tears! LOL because i did not cry! haha oh wells! it was sad and heart warming! actually I didn't think it was THAT sad... but it was sad! and i thought the guy was very thoughtful! :) *sigh* sometimes I don't like watchign too much romantic stuff!! LOL not cos i don't like it.. I LOVE THIS KIND OF STUFF!! lol but MAN! these people/guys in the movies are stealing awesome ideas that I wanted to do!!! or want to do... but now, can't cos someone else already did it.. LOL YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?! lol I want my superly romantic ideas i do for my DG to be original.. lol not a copy cat from a random chick flick i watched! LOL *sigh* so yeah, if i do get any awesome ideas, i can't tell you! cos this is online.. and movie producers will steal it before i do it!! LOLOL JKJK but yeah honestly, so many ideas have been done already! it's pretty hard to think of new ones!!!....ORRR if i get an idea before I watch the movie and DO IT before i watch it.. i won't feel bad.. cos then i'll be like.. W/E! they copied me! ;) haha jkjk iunno! yeahh i know that there are SUPER BILLIONS of ppl in this world and every idea has probalby been done at least once.. but still! okay i don't know where i'm going with this anymore!! :D so yeah! see you soon!! and i really hope i sleep by 11:30-12 today! then i'll be happy! and waike up at 8am! oh man! that would be sooo GOODD!

OH YEAH today's weather was awesome!! reminded me of God's AWESOMENESS! :D i was feeling a lil down, but He lifted me back up! :)

SMILE and be happy! :D

sunday service!

So this morning, my alarm went off and I like.. immediately shut it off! haah and i was like.. God, if you want me to go to service, make my roommate come down and wake me up! LOL mainly cos i just really didn't feel like going.  Even though we talked about it last night, we have history of "accidentally" not waking up on time and just missing the shuttlebus to church!  Anyways, I went back..lying in my bed just chilling and relaxing...kind of feeling bad for skipping church! haha 15 mins before we are supposed to leave, my roommate comes down and is like JIREH! lets GO!!! haha and i'm like.. DANG! okay! AHHA so i got up, took a shower, ate food and bolted out! oh yeahhhh!! :D took me 20 mins but we still caught the shuttlebus! :) haha and today was literally my fave topic!! it was about marriage!! :D and the role of men and women!  Essentially, wives, be submissive to your husbands in the Lord and husbands, love your wives as Christ loves the church!  I can go on about it...but I wont! LOL if you have questions, ask me in the comments below and i'll give you an answer!! haha but yeah! passage was taken from Colossians 3:18,19 i believe! :) haha

The sermon was a really great reminder to me!  It reminded me that I'm probably going to get married one day...and if i want to have a godly relationship with my wife, I need to be holy and pure! And keep myself sexually devoted to her (two eyeball principal and honouring my DG for now).  I also need to become a man who seeks Christ...Someone who can someday lead a godly women in His word...someone who can love, encourage and cultivate her!

Dream girl, I can't wait until the day we get married! haah i think it'll be wonderful!! haha make sure I treat you right! or smack me in the head!!! :D HAHA I love you! ;) just saying! and I won't ever let you question it!

SMILE!